Being so blur, confuse of what happening..
taking initiative to ask and know further..
From not feeling to join but tolerate..
Taking initiative and thinking positively..
But at the end,
How sad.. that no matter what u try to tolerate..
and the result is jus being a fool of..
Frustrated, temper, anger..
nothing.. but jus speechless.
negative feeling jus torturing...
so of all.. be cheer ful and happy..
Is the best thing can be done...
Wednesday, July 26, 2006
Tuesday, July 25, 2006
The old and the daughter..
The day I meet with them. It has been ages that I didn’t meet them there. The very last time I met with them in that house, which the memory a bit blur in my mind is the time I was really young.. Most probably I am jus in my primary years. I cant remember exactly when.. but I guess is the lower primary years.
The old woman and her daughter who is mute who live the top floor of the flat. In my younger years, I feel sympathy on them. Feel sympathy for the old woman, who is old enough but still need to climb so many floors without lift and doing some business daily by selling food to make some money for living. It is not that she do not have any children that care for them.. but this old woman just stubborn enough wan to rely on herself and continue her business although her both legs are getting weaker as she grow older.
On the day I met with them… The different that I see and the different feeling that I have.. I just spent probably half an hour there at their house the other day. The old woman is strong and stubborn as before.. She hardly walks as she recently fell down and hurt her legs. Watching her pushing the square steel chair, humpbacked and trying to make each step without help of anyone can really make people around realize how much this old woman would struggle to live without people’s help.
Her daughter.. Still the same but I guess she much more older now. I saw her with some white hairs and her face skin that wrinkled. When I was young, I dislike to talk to her as I cant understand what she saying. She always with her hand sign language. But this time, the feeling is different… I feel that I really try to understand what she trying to tell me with the sign language.. although I still cant understand it well but I guess it not that important that I didn’t understand.. but maybe what most important is I spent time trying to listen to her. She seem to be a very happy go lucky person although she is speechless. Jus feel that, all this while she really rarely have someone she can talk to. No matter she is happy or sad, she will not be able to blurt out.
On that fine day, jus coincident that I happen to drop by and give a little helping hand. But the old woman already keep on saying thanks to me… which really make me feel uneasy…jus feel that jus a little help that I think it is not worth for a single thanks or even that I didn’t really gave much help… While her daughter jus keep on trying to entertain me and serving me with water.. Jus wonder people like this old woman and her daughter who live a simple living but really appreciating each of the moments they have in life and every single things given to them.. But in our daily life, do we really take the opportunities to really appreciating things we have, the people around us and what is given to us.. Sometimes people do not realize, or sometimes people do realize. Although people realize but they still cant make sure we appreciating every moments given.. There will be always something that we regret and never treasure well.. Therefore, we can jus always remind ourselves to appreciate every single things no matter is the good or bad.. IT is still something worth to treasure of in our daily life..
The old woman and her daughter who is mute who live the top floor of the flat. In my younger years, I feel sympathy on them. Feel sympathy for the old woman, who is old enough but still need to climb so many floors without lift and doing some business daily by selling food to make some money for living. It is not that she do not have any children that care for them.. but this old woman just stubborn enough wan to rely on herself and continue her business although her both legs are getting weaker as she grow older.
On the day I met with them… The different that I see and the different feeling that I have.. I just spent probably half an hour there at their house the other day. The old woman is strong and stubborn as before.. She hardly walks as she recently fell down and hurt her legs. Watching her pushing the square steel chair, humpbacked and trying to make each step without help of anyone can really make people around realize how much this old woman would struggle to live without people’s help.
Her daughter.. Still the same but I guess she much more older now. I saw her with some white hairs and her face skin that wrinkled. When I was young, I dislike to talk to her as I cant understand what she saying. She always with her hand sign language. But this time, the feeling is different… I feel that I really try to understand what she trying to tell me with the sign language.. although I still cant understand it well but I guess it not that important that I didn’t understand.. but maybe what most important is I spent time trying to listen to her. She seem to be a very happy go lucky person although she is speechless. Jus feel that, all this while she really rarely have someone she can talk to. No matter she is happy or sad, she will not be able to blurt out.
On that fine day, jus coincident that I happen to drop by and give a little helping hand. But the old woman already keep on saying thanks to me… which really make me feel uneasy…jus feel that jus a little help that I think it is not worth for a single thanks or even that I didn’t really gave much help… While her daughter jus keep on trying to entertain me and serving me with water.. Jus wonder people like this old woman and her daughter who live a simple living but really appreciating each of the moments they have in life and every single things given to them.. But in our daily life, do we really take the opportunities to really appreciating things we have, the people around us and what is given to us.. Sometimes people do not realize, or sometimes people do realize. Although people realize but they still cant make sure we appreciating every moments given.. There will be always something that we regret and never treasure well.. Therefore, we can jus always remind ourselves to appreciate every single things no matter is the good or bad.. IT is still something worth to treasure of in our daily life..
Simple care can be yet so complicated...
Care,
We might always stand a chance to be the one who care for others and as well as being the one to be care of.. jus depend on situation and what role we are playing on. But which way we play the role most.. or which is the better role.. or izzit a better role there...
Being the one who care for others.. the care we give is hopefully appreciated or welcome by others.. and not a burden to others.. the care and the help we trying to give is hopefully benefit the other and the one we care for.. But we may not underestimate that it might not always turn the positive way.. it might be a burden, a frustration or worsen the situation.. Thus, in this situation.. how much a care should go into? or it might be the time should really think of whether the person to be care wanted someone care or not? Sometimes, never hesitate that people may not want care but need silent..
BEing the one to be care of.. appreciating...happy,feel thankful.. or the negative site.... of frustration!!! Sometimes, people hope to be care of.. but turn up no one care for them.. and it is so depressed for them for not having someone to care for them.. not even familes that they hav to care for them.. orphanage.. they need parents care but they dun have it...but when there are people to care for them.. they may complain they care too much... PEople with families.. may complain families care too much...People feel frustrated to explain and inform too much...When look back.. it jus seem as those who have someone who care for them are not feeling grateful and appreciating.. Not only in family, it occurs anywhere to anyone of the communities.. among friends, among couples, among married couple, among neighbours, among relatives, among people to people relationships
Positive of care.. people learnt to appreciate and be glad and never take things for granted.. while the negative side.. care created jealousy and expectation.. Jealousy occur when people who care didnt manage their care well for everyone..While expectation happen to people who should be care of or people who care for others..
In a positive way of living.. How likely we are to manage care.. How we manage our care for people and how to manage people care on us.. to avoid any of the negatives outcomes... A simple care might bring a smile, while care can be so simple yet so complicated..
Take time thinking about the one you care and the one who care for u.. Do we really manage the care we gave well....or do we care enough for the one who really need our care? and do we really appreciating and no complain about the one who cares so much for us...
We might always stand a chance to be the one who care for others and as well as being the one to be care of.. jus depend on situation and what role we are playing on. But which way we play the role most.. or which is the better role.. or izzit a better role there...
Being the one who care for others.. the care we give is hopefully appreciated or welcome by others.. and not a burden to others.. the care and the help we trying to give is hopefully benefit the other and the one we care for.. But we may not underestimate that it might not always turn the positive way.. it might be a burden, a frustration or worsen the situation.. Thus, in this situation.. how much a care should go into? or it might be the time should really think of whether the person to be care wanted someone care or not? Sometimes, never hesitate that people may not want care but need silent..
BEing the one to be care of.. appreciating...happy,feel thankful.. or the negative site.... of frustration!!! Sometimes, people hope to be care of.. but turn up no one care for them.. and it is so depressed for them for not having someone to care for them.. not even familes that they hav to care for them.. orphanage.. they need parents care but they dun have it...but when there are people to care for them.. they may complain they care too much... PEople with families.. may complain families care too much...People feel frustrated to explain and inform too much...When look back.. it jus seem as those who have someone who care for them are not feeling grateful and appreciating.. Not only in family, it occurs anywhere to anyone of the communities.. among friends, among couples, among married couple, among neighbours, among relatives, among people to people relationships
Positive of care.. people learnt to appreciate and be glad and never take things for granted.. while the negative side.. care created jealousy and expectation.. Jealousy occur when people who care didnt manage their care well for everyone..While expectation happen to people who should be care of or people who care for others..
In a positive way of living.. How likely we are to manage care.. How we manage our care for people and how to manage people care on us.. to avoid any of the negatives outcomes... A simple care might bring a smile, while care can be so simple yet so complicated..
Take time thinking about the one you care and the one who care for u.. Do we really manage the care we gave well....or do we care enough for the one who really need our care? and do we really appreciating and no complain about the one who cares so much for us...
Sunday, July 09, 2006
MMM
MMM-The orientation week for the new comer of the university. Went back to Uni recently and while waiting the other day, i saw a bunch of the new comers having the gaming session. It make me reflect back my MMM week past three years when i step in this uni. It should be a fun week.. but as for me its more of a nightmare. Dunno why but it jus seem like a dream and past... So fast threee years i spent in UKm and now is time to leave and grad!
It jus remind me of the day i check the internet. when i found myself getting the admission to UKM.. it is really joy.. but it is sad that one of my good friend cant manage to make it to national university.. It is really sad as for me i think that she is a very smart and intelligent person.. but how come such a person cant get a place to the uni.. at the meanwhile she is there with a few of us checking the admission status.. of all she is the only one cant get in. Therefore although we are happy but it turn to be gloomy..
Next is the time to get into the orientation week.. i was placed to stayed in KKM.. the biggest and and most far kolej at that moment.. from that kolej to my faculty by walking it need more than half an hour. dunno whether lucky or not, as when i first go in... i am sharing a room with a coursemate.. at that moment it is better than some other people as i dunno anyone there. so the life in the kolej jus begin with this coursemate. In the orientation week, not really having fun as dunno anyone there but jus my roommate.. and jus more of socialising with many people although u dun wish too.. then of course being fool by those seniors and facilitators. Running from the cafetaria to the room to change in 5 mins the first nite. I still remember my first night there, it jus feel so lonely and sad as u have no one close to u there or even someone u can really talk to. Jus all stranger around, and the first nite jus dunno why too emotional till i have tears. but luckily very fast i told myself.. to be strong and independent.. it is really time to learn and i manage to go thru it.. from there i try to tell myself to enjoy each day and soon the orientation week will past.. but really the orientation week sem so suffer.. i jus din feel any freedom.. and hated it. The perang dectar, sitting in cafetaria being lecture all the time and early morning a moral talk by the senior.. and making frens with people dun really treat u as friends.. the feeling is really bad.. Then the game session not fun at all... not as fun as what i saw the other day.. maybe because of the kolej is big and many occupants.. so din really get the fun of it.. Thats why, the orientation week seem to be a nightmare to me rather than a good experience.
After the orientation week, everything seem better as there are freedom. But seem that i jus know my roommate who is my coursemate.. so at that moment jus go everywhere with her.. my roommate was a study maniac... so most of the time she want me go library with her.. it is really bored for me.. but no choice.. and that first year really bored.. cause the group of frens i ahve there are the types of quiet and silent.. i mean hardly have fun with them.. not the same type person..
Therefore, MMM is the time u know new friends and choose the friends that u wan to get along with. But of course at that time that u dunno anyone it is good to have frens. although a hi and bye frens is also good.. as there is someone to keep u accompany when it is really bored or the time u have a lot of questions in our mind that u wish someone can provide some answers. But from what i saw the other day is a totally different situation.. where i saw those new comers is so happy and enjoying themselves.. It can always saw them with a smile on their face.. Maybe in a smaller kolej, it is more different and more esy to get close with people. But really glad to see those facilitator and so as the students was having so much fun at the carpark the other days...
Thursday, July 06, 2006
Hello and Goodbye
Two simple greetings that we use to learn in our early age... During our childhood time, teacher always teach us to say hello when we meet anyone while goodbye when leaving.. till today we still apply this manners.
But it seem like it is always easier to say hello then goodbye! There is a TV programme of Hello and Goodbye in Aust.. and from there.. I can always see that Hello always with a happy smile or happy tears... while goodbye always seem so hard and difficult..cause goodbye hardly with a smile.. although it do.. but it always with a sad smile.. And normally it ended with tears.. Why people have tears.. The feelings and tears of missing their loved ones.. or jus worried about the people behind them.. But when look back.. there will not have goodbye without having hello.. Jus like a human life.. when we are born.. ppl around welcome by smile and a big hello.. while a human pass away.. they left the loved one with tears and goodbye forever...
Dunno why have the feeling to blog on this hello and goodbye.. but jus simply. maybe too many people for me to say hello and goodbye at the same time.. " hello, hie , how are you.. and bye, goodbye, take care and keep in touch!!"
Thats Life!!!
But it seem like it is always easier to say hello then goodbye! There is a TV programme of Hello and Goodbye in Aust.. and from there.. I can always see that Hello always with a happy smile or happy tears... while goodbye always seem so hard and difficult..cause goodbye hardly with a smile.. although it do.. but it always with a sad smile.. And normally it ended with tears.. Why people have tears.. The feelings and tears of missing their loved ones.. or jus worried about the people behind them.. But when look back.. there will not have goodbye without having hello.. Jus like a human life.. when we are born.. ppl around welcome by smile and a big hello.. while a human pass away.. they left the loved one with tears and goodbye forever...
Dunno why have the feeling to blog on this hello and goodbye.. but jus simply. maybe too many people for me to say hello and goodbye at the same time.. " hello, hie , how are you.. and bye, goodbye, take care and keep in touch!!"
Thats Life!!!
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