What a day..
In the busy morning.. i got this message.
I was like ' Bloody hell' after reading the message..
Why people sent this kind of message to me.. I am out of mind..
Dunno what i can reply..Cool myself down and reply in a good manner.
The next message came and it more worst..
It seem as u try to cool urself down to close the case.. but the message came to start fire..
this time i take a longer time to really calm down.. and instead of i burst..
I reply in a good manner.. worries of hurting the opponent if i really burst the truth!
Summary.. ppl come to start a fire with me, but instead of arguing, I ended up to cool myself and need to say something to persuade the other opponent jus because i worry i might hurt my opponent..
Next... the husband and wife.. Husband always with the A saying... thinking that he always in the correct saying.. while his saying always opposite of the wife saying.. His wife always have her own way of doing thigns without discussing with the husband... while the husband expecting me to follow his words.. ended up one day husband saying A to me.. wife saying B to me. and which to follow.. follow A get scolding from wife.. follow B husband lecturing it is not the right way for us to do thing like that! Really WHAT DE !!!!!
Saturday, December 16, 2006
Sunday, December 10, 2006
Another weekend
It is weekend again..
Time really pass without realizing it is so fast.
Today weather same as the previous past sunday..
Weather jus nice, cool, windy and clear..
This kind of weather really good for a walk at the park early morning, hillls climbing or even some sports.. but of all this.. i jus stay at home.. not that i sleep till late.. as the automatic clock strike my mind to wake up every sun morning as the usual workdays.. And as usual, i think of goin ot to park for some healthy activities or others.. but i always ended up stuck at home.. probably hanging around with my grandma in the kitchen or jus hanging in front of the computer.. Sometimes.. kidda bored at home.. but in other way.. it is more of a relaxing day i have for myself!
Hmm.. talk about park. i thought of my last evening with my two dearest friends.. Well. although it was a late evening. but i do think we had a great evening together, spending our leisure time together to walk around the park, looking for fishes and have some sweet and funny moments together at the swing.. Well.. the feeling of that evening was really great.. Cause it was a different type of routine we do. instead of jus walking shopping malls.. or jus a drink at the cafe.. But the miss.. is we reach late.. and miss the entrance time to the Tugu Negara..Actually that is the first time i went there with frens.. Rarely been there.. My first time to be there... was with my family when i was aged really young. Reason to be there was jus to take a relative who came back from Taiwan.. Purposely go there for a walk... last evening was my first time.. Haha.. Jus as my previous first time of visiting the Istana Negara entrance with my coursemate.. And to my two dearest friends.. we make a great companion last Sunday.. and i should say very lucky to have the right timing for us to really spent some time together walking around or doing some weird weird things.. after so many years that each of us stepped out from schools and busy with our own routine of life.. with works, studies at different places....
Time really pass without realizing it is so fast.
Today weather same as the previous past sunday..
Weather jus nice, cool, windy and clear..
This kind of weather really good for a walk at the park early morning, hillls climbing or even some sports.. but of all this.. i jus stay at home.. not that i sleep till late.. as the automatic clock strike my mind to wake up every sun morning as the usual workdays.. And as usual, i think of goin ot to park for some healthy activities or others.. but i always ended up stuck at home.. probably hanging around with my grandma in the kitchen or jus hanging in front of the computer.. Sometimes.. kidda bored at home.. but in other way.. it is more of a relaxing day i have for myself!
Hmm.. talk about park. i thought of my last evening with my two dearest friends.. Well. although it was a late evening. but i do think we had a great evening together, spending our leisure time together to walk around the park, looking for fishes and have some sweet and funny moments together at the swing.. Well.. the feeling of that evening was really great.. Cause it was a different type of routine we do. instead of jus walking shopping malls.. or jus a drink at the cafe.. But the miss.. is we reach late.. and miss the entrance time to the Tugu Negara..Actually that is the first time i went there with frens.. Rarely been there.. My first time to be there... was with my family when i was aged really young. Reason to be there was jus to take a relative who came back from Taiwan.. Purposely go there for a walk... last evening was my first time.. Haha.. Jus as my previous first time of visiting the Istana Negara entrance with my coursemate.. And to my two dearest friends.. we make a great companion last Sunday.. and i should say very lucky to have the right timing for us to really spent some time together walking around or doing some weird weird things.. after so many years that each of us stepped out from schools and busy with our own routine of life.. with works, studies at different places....
Saturday, December 02, 2006
Weekend
Weekend come and weekend jus goes off..
Weekdays start and we look ahead for another weekend..
but when weekend end we always look for another weekend.
Weekend mean for day off and rest..
how many of us really rest during weekend.
No matter we rest or not..
the valuable of weekend depending on how we spent on it..
Of all, we still the one to decide how we want our weekend to be..
Busy, full of entertainment, peaceful and relaxing..
Choice of livng, choice of life valid on our hands.
A sickness weekend doesn't mean is bad.. but look in the other hand.. its a time that we really slow down and rest to the fullest and be prepare for the next coming events and routine of life..
Weekdays start and we look ahead for another weekend..
but when weekend end we always look for another weekend.
Weekend mean for day off and rest..
how many of us really rest during weekend.
No matter we rest or not..
the valuable of weekend depending on how we spent on it..
Of all, we still the one to decide how we want our weekend to be..
Busy, full of entertainment, peaceful and relaxing..
Choice of livng, choice of life valid on our hands.
A sickness weekend doesn't mean is bad.. but look in the other hand.. its a time that we really slow down and rest to the fullest and be prepare for the next coming events and routine of life..
Friday, October 27, 2006
Smile =)
When there is some day u find nobody cares about you, nobody listen to you, nobody can help you.. or no time for you.. you may feel totally upset, discourage, unhappy and lonely.. At this moment.. u will feel much loneliness and depressed... but always bear in mind.. The sun in front of you always smile on you! Step forward with courage and return the smile. Start everyhting with a smile.. A simple smile may brighten up your day.. So whenever u have tears or sadness... always remember to return a smile.. Cheer up.....
Thursday, October 12, 2006
Expired food
Do i always stay healthy? not really sure about that.. but from yesterday onwards, i realize i need to have more insurance and heavy insurance.. cause i feel that my health will be deteriorate and get harm staying with nowadays work.
And maybe i should also said that, i realize why the QA exec in my company didnt stay long with my boss. Cause from being the QA exec there.. the responsibilities is more of a white mouse to my boss to evaluate and try expiry goods... The boss is really sucha stingy person or i shall say all bosses are like that! but to food company.. expiry mean expiry.. how come!!!
Aiks.. yesterday.. i was assigned to evaluate on those fruit cake products which were expired for a year/two.. and my boss dun wan to throw away.. btu plan to resell.. and he wan the QA to evaluate on the products and here my job come.. the white mouse to try and taste the cake.. i was surprise yet feel so hard for me to take the lead to try on that.. cause i am a sensitive person to expiry food.. which i will not eat although it still look good. but this time i need to take a lead.. Cant say much but i go ahead with it! and actually the cake still taste good but just not fresh,dry and with burn smell.. i thought actaully the cake not that bad also.. And never thought today i am on medical sick leave.. i vomitted,diarrhoe, stomache and with slight fever... went to see the doc.. he ask did i take any wrong food.. i dun dare tell him, i took some of the expiry cake! but this is the culprit that i suspected!
And yet yesterday meeting, boss had assign a new task for me.. from today onwards, i need to evaluate on those rejected swiss roll which have expired but not mouldy... Bos told me to check on it and even must taste it!! Urgh!! taste expired food again!! Why i need to do all this geh.. always eat expired food!! Really dunno how much bacteria were there.. and how much microorganism that i will need to consume to my body..I really praying hard that my immune system able to take it.. Or else.. i really no idea.. how many times i need to fall sick again! Or else.. i guess, is time for me to do fake report to my boss on the evaluation.. Realy got nightmare of consuming these type of food!
And maybe i should also said that, i realize why the QA exec in my company didnt stay long with my boss. Cause from being the QA exec there.. the responsibilities is more of a white mouse to my boss to evaluate and try expiry goods... The boss is really sucha stingy person or i shall say all bosses are like that! but to food company.. expiry mean expiry.. how come!!!
Aiks.. yesterday.. i was assigned to evaluate on those fruit cake products which were expired for a year/two.. and my boss dun wan to throw away.. btu plan to resell.. and he wan the QA to evaluate on the products and here my job come.. the white mouse to try and taste the cake.. i was surprise yet feel so hard for me to take the lead to try on that.. cause i am a sensitive person to expiry food.. which i will not eat although it still look good. but this time i need to take a lead.. Cant say much but i go ahead with it! and actually the cake still taste good but just not fresh,dry and with burn smell.. i thought actaully the cake not that bad also.. And never thought today i am on medical sick leave.. i vomitted,diarrhoe, stomache and with slight fever... went to see the doc.. he ask did i take any wrong food.. i dun dare tell him, i took some of the expiry cake! but this is the culprit that i suspected!
And yet yesterday meeting, boss had assign a new task for me.. from today onwards, i need to evaluate on those rejected swiss roll which have expired but not mouldy... Bos told me to check on it and even must taste it!! Urgh!! taste expired food again!! Why i need to do all this geh.. always eat expired food!! Really dunno how much bacteria were there.. and how much microorganism that i will need to consume to my body..I really praying hard that my immune system able to take it.. Or else.. i really no idea.. how many times i need to fall sick again! Or else.. i guess, is time for me to do fake report to my boss on the evaluation.. Realy got nightmare of consuming these type of food!
Monday, October 09, 2006
siu keung
I am glad that i am not afraid of cockroaches. or else i need to quit! my first day, i saw ths siu keung at the kaya packaging machine..just passing by.. like jus to appear the moment to say hi or to welcome me to the company.. then after few days.. i saw siu keung at the production area. siu keung pass by again around the kaya kettle temperature device. and next siu keung came more near.. siu keung seem to like to appear infront of me.. this time siu keung came to my territory.. the laboratory.. but since siu keung like me so much.. come to laboratory.. so i also welcome siu keung with a normal response.. kill it..kakakkak
next siu keung come again after few days.. ths time siu keung more smart.. siu keung didnt appear by jus passing by but playing a hide and seek game. siu keung appear at the site of a device which i am holding to check the viscosity of the kaya.. and it is the viscometer.. this time i didnt manage to kill it but jus more of hunting which hole the siu keung hide..
And today siu keung make a group attack.. and i got a shock and feel so disgusting!!.. from the basket of reject goods.. a group of siu keung jus loitering around and walking aorund the reject goods.. which me and my colleague unable or unwilling to put our hand in the basket to get the reject goods and make data recording on it.. and my natural respond is. 1,2,3 take the whole basket and throw it away into the big garbage area outside the factory.. After throw.. only i think back.. what to do and what to answer to boss.. cause i throw all the reject goods that i need to make a record. but.. i jus tell my colleague to jot down full of cockroaches and i will answer what needed in meeting.
During meeting, this issue really highlight by my boss.. and i did tell him wat had happen.. and he granted me a job now... look for the nest of this cockroaches.. sigh~ whole factory so big how to identify the nest and from where this coakroaches come from... hia.. look like this week main responsibilities is to find out where siu keung live...
siu keung siu keung.. where are u???
Disgusting yah.. food factory full of cockroahes... i also feel urgh!!!!!!!!! no appetite to have lunch...yucky yucky yucky!!! mayeb good to lost appetite and go on diet.. everyday facing and tracking siu keung, moulds and expired goods!!!
next siu keung come again after few days.. ths time siu keung more smart.. siu keung didnt appear by jus passing by but playing a hide and seek game. siu keung appear at the site of a device which i am holding to check the viscosity of the kaya.. and it is the viscometer.. this time i didnt manage to kill it but jus more of hunting which hole the siu keung hide..
And today siu keung make a group attack.. and i got a shock and feel so disgusting!!.. from the basket of reject goods.. a group of siu keung jus loitering around and walking aorund the reject goods.. which me and my colleague unable or unwilling to put our hand in the basket to get the reject goods and make data recording on it.. and my natural respond is. 1,2,3 take the whole basket and throw it away into the big garbage area outside the factory.. After throw.. only i think back.. what to do and what to answer to boss.. cause i throw all the reject goods that i need to make a record. but.. i jus tell my colleague to jot down full of cockroaches and i will answer what needed in meeting.
During meeting, this issue really highlight by my boss.. and i did tell him wat had happen.. and he granted me a job now... look for the nest of this cockroaches.. sigh~ whole factory so big how to identify the nest and from where this coakroaches come from... hia.. look like this week main responsibilities is to find out where siu keung live...
siu keung siu keung.. where are u???
Disgusting yah.. food factory full of cockroahes... i also feel urgh!!!!!!!!! no appetite to have lunch...yucky yucky yucky!!! mayeb good to lost appetite and go on diet.. everyday facing and tracking siu keung, moulds and expired goods!!!
Sunday, September 24, 2006
MY first week of work
MY first week of work.. hmm.. a bit not use to it the first few days.. as really need to wake up early morning.. so sleepy and try to get use and familiar with the colleagues there. erm.. colleagues still ok.. environment.. although not that great but still under adaptation..
People said at home bored.. but this week i jus feel as at work it is bored as well.. cause what i did is jus reading procedures, motivation notes and jus walking around as a stranger look how kaya, and bean paste is being processes. hmm.. next week will start to be introduce more on the inspection processes and more training on quality control... at the moments not tiring.. but later really dunno..hahah. hope that it is not too bad..
Actually is great to have a honeymoon time at work.. and i should not be complaining.. but too long hours of honeymoon will get to so bored.. and really wondering and looking for work to do.. cause when u see others so busy working.. while i am jus so free sitting there dunno wat to do.. feel as not so proper manner.. But i also tell myself.. if later got too many works to do.. then wil sure start to complain more.. aiks.. human really so difficult to satisfy the needs.. got work complain.. no work also complain..ahhaha.. Wat kind of situation we feel the best with???
People said at home bored.. but this week i jus feel as at work it is bored as well.. cause what i did is jus reading procedures, motivation notes and jus walking around as a stranger look how kaya, and bean paste is being processes. hmm.. next week will start to be introduce more on the inspection processes and more training on quality control... at the moments not tiring.. but later really dunno..hahah. hope that it is not too bad..
Actually is great to have a honeymoon time at work.. and i should not be complaining.. but too long hours of honeymoon will get to so bored.. and really wondering and looking for work to do.. cause when u see others so busy working.. while i am jus so free sitting there dunno wat to do.. feel as not so proper manner.. But i also tell myself.. if later got too many works to do.. then wil sure start to complain more.. aiks.. human really so difficult to satisfy the needs.. got work complain.. no work also complain..ahhaha.. Wat kind of situation we feel the best with???
Monday, September 18, 2006
Early Morning...
Wake up early morning todya at 7 am.. jus purposely doing so to adapt to it so that i can get use to it.. i alwasy thnk that wake up early not that difficult.. but the difficult task is how to struggle the hours after u awake.. cause is like so sleepy.. and i need more sleep feel.. so of all this.. i decided to sleep more early tonight.. ahha.. Cause after i awake till now.. i cant stop yawning.. worst is i keep on laying on my bed for minutes of nap.. gosh...
hmmm.. tomorrow at this time.. i shall be working.. working and adapting myself in the new environment.. dunno wat the condition is.. but i guess of course not like now can sit and blog..kakka..
well.. really stepping in the 2nd phase of life.. working.. hmmm.. lets do some calculation..
when we are born.. crying baby and crying day and nite for milk.. assume 1 year.. then when we learn to crawl, learn to stand and learn to walk, learn to demand and learn to play.. age 2-4yr old..
next 1st change..1st stage of life.. education life.. I went in tadika when i was 4 yrs old.. study for 3 yrs of tadika.. it was unusual as i go in tadika a longer period than any other ppls.. Why?? dun ask why!!! Maybe thats why i so smart today..ahhah.. then primary for 6 yrs and then secondary 5 yrs... form six 2 yrs and university 3 yrs.. wow.. i spent about 19yrs of studying..wakakkaa. not enough.. wat about taking master add either 1/2 yrs.. then it will sum up to 20yrs of studying..hhaha.. Dream first!!!
and now year of 2006.. stepping ahead for the 2nd phase of life.. working.. well.. my first job.. Food technologist in a bread spread company.. now cant comment much.. cause dunno yet..hahah.. will blog more on it after i started.. if count from now.. still got how many yrs of working ar??? erm.. still got about 30yrs to work... wah.. working really is the longest period we spent in our life... anyway lsat friday morning, i heard a professional saying that mostly the graduates will need to spent about 10yrs of shifting and jumping on their career to realize thier true and real career path.. so that mean the first 10 years is to look, learn and jump.. then for the next 20years .. is really the hard work pour to ur career path and building the future of wat we hope for.. so meaning is i still have 10years of playing in career path.. before proceeding to my dream job...hahaha.. anyway who knows what our future are.. maybe i ended up in food industry or maybe i didnt..haha.. really dunno.. but most important now i give a try in food industry.. really not suitable only run..hahah
Haha.. blogging can really kill some time.. if not so early in the morning.. really no idea what to do.. hmmm..hahah.. really wat a bolg in this early morning..kakaka..
Thursday, August 31, 2006
Importance of communication
Justification of communication,
How importance of communication will be..
By communication, we learn of understanding and building relationship,
good communication brings.. good impacts..
Well understanding and with good relationship..
But good communication cant be created by single individuals.. but together..
One person efforts will never be enough..
Different people with different communication method..
The time to communicate is not importance as the degree of understanding the needs is more importance.
Sometimes.. we try to communicate more and hope the understanding will grow.. but things will never be that well. as more communication bring more different perceptions and different opinion.. which causes more troubles.
Less communication.. doesn't mean to be bad.. as sometimes.. we can get to understand ppl well. although we communicate less.. less communication may also bring less troubles.. and less worries..
Valuation of communication..
Depending on peoples u dealing with..
some.. u need to communicate more.. but some.. they will jus understand by heart...
Whether communication can be a tool or a disaster..
Depends on the way we applying it on our daily life..
Balancing it and make a good part of it..
Will benefit and do more goods than harms...
How importance of communication will be..
By communication, we learn of understanding and building relationship,
good communication brings.. good impacts..
Well understanding and with good relationship..
But good communication cant be created by single individuals.. but together..
One person efforts will never be enough..
Different people with different communication method..
The time to communicate is not importance as the degree of understanding the needs is more importance.
Sometimes.. we try to communicate more and hope the understanding will grow.. but things will never be that well. as more communication bring more different perceptions and different opinion.. which causes more troubles.
Less communication.. doesn't mean to be bad.. as sometimes.. we can get to understand ppl well. although we communicate less.. less communication may also bring less troubles.. and less worries..
Valuation of communication..
Depending on peoples u dealing with..
some.. u need to communicate more.. but some.. they will jus understand by heart...
Whether communication can be a tool or a disaster..
Depends on the way we applying it on our daily life..
Balancing it and make a good part of it..
Will benefit and do more goods than harms...
Changes...
People change as time goes by..
But whether the change is good or bad..
it hardly judge by u or me or anyone..
As decision need to be made for changes..
And each individuals have their own rights to choose their path..
A path and direction that they dream of but not supportive..
or a future that everyone hope for and want to be..
Everyone want to change for better.. but
Will the changes always be a better one for urself or up to others expectation..
U may think u change for good but others may think it is not enough good..
So which is the most important criteria..
Urself or others..
Ourselves.. but ppl may think we are selfish..
OThers.. but the life is yours and u think so much about others.. will it be a stupid fool
Expectation and more expectation.. whose expectation you can manage to fulfill...
Tolerating.. we tolerate for each other changes.. but how much and how long this toleration can be continue..
Will the toleration given taken granted by others..
When this is happening.. will the toleration given still worthwhile to be given sincerely..
Or it is the time to put a stop.. and the end of the patient for the toleration..
As time goes by.. we never know which is true, which is correct and which is the best..
WE jus learn to grow, learn to manage...
And making life happier from one day to another...
Life brings thinking.. but thinking might not bring happiness..
So.. why make life difficult by thinking so much..
Lift it up.. and Jus trying to make a simple life by...
Live for life of happpiness!
But whether the change is good or bad..
it hardly judge by u or me or anyone..
As decision need to be made for changes..
And each individuals have their own rights to choose their path..
A path and direction that they dream of but not supportive..
or a future that everyone hope for and want to be..
Everyone want to change for better.. but
Will the changes always be a better one for urself or up to others expectation..
U may think u change for good but others may think it is not enough good..
So which is the most important criteria..
Urself or others..
Ourselves.. but ppl may think we are selfish..
OThers.. but the life is yours and u think so much about others.. will it be a stupid fool
Expectation and more expectation.. whose expectation you can manage to fulfill...
Tolerating.. we tolerate for each other changes.. but how much and how long this toleration can be continue..
Will the toleration given taken granted by others..
When this is happening.. will the toleration given still worthwhile to be given sincerely..
Or it is the time to put a stop.. and the end of the patient for the toleration..
As time goes by.. we never know which is true, which is correct and which is the best..
WE jus learn to grow, learn to manage...
And making life happier from one day to another...
Life brings thinking.. but thinking might not bring happiness..
So.. why make life difficult by thinking so much..
Lift it up.. and Jus trying to make a simple life by...
Live for life of happpiness!
Thursday, August 24, 2006
Graduation by Vitamin C
And so we talked all night about the rest of our lives
Where we're gonna be when we turn 25
I keep thinking times will never change
Keep on thinking things will always be the same
But when we leave this year we won't be coming back
No more hanging out cause we're on a different track
And if you got something that you need to say
You better say it right now cause you don't have another day
Cause we're moving on and we can't slow down
These memories are playing like a film without sound
And I keep thinking of that night in June
I didn't know much of love
But it came too soon
And there was me and you
And then we got real cool
Stay at home talking on the telephone with me
We'd get so excited, we'd get so scared
Laughing at our selves thinking life's not fair
And this is how it feels
As we go on
We remember
All the times we
Had together
And as our lives change
Come whatever
We will still be
Friends forever
So if we get the big jobs
And we make the big money
When we look back now
Will our jokes still be funny?
Will we still remember everything we learned in school?
Still be trying to break every single rule
Will little brainy Bobby be the stockbroker man?
Can Heather find a job that won't interfere with her tan?
I keep, I keep thinking that it's not goodbye
Keep on thinking it's a time to fly
And this is how it feels
As we go on
We remember
All the times we
Had together
And as our lives change
Come whatever
We will still be
Friends forever
Will we think about tomorrow like we think about now?
Can we survive it out there?
Can we make it somehow?
I guess I thought that this would never end
And suddenly it's like we're women and men
Will the past be a shadow that will follow us 'round?
Will these memories fade when I leave this town
I keep, I keep thinking that it's not goodbye
Keep on thinking it's a time to fly
As we go on
We remember
All the times we
Had together
And as our lives change
Come whatever
We will still be
Friends forever
Where we're gonna be when we turn 25
I keep thinking times will never change
Keep on thinking things will always be the same
But when we leave this year we won't be coming back
No more hanging out cause we're on a different track
And if you got something that you need to say
You better say it right now cause you don't have another day
Cause we're moving on and we can't slow down
These memories are playing like a film without sound
And I keep thinking of that night in June
I didn't know much of love
But it came too soon
And there was me and you
And then we got real cool
Stay at home talking on the telephone with me
We'd get so excited, we'd get so scared
Laughing at our selves thinking life's not fair
And this is how it feels
As we go on
We remember
All the times we
Had together
And as our lives change
Come whatever
We will still be
Friends forever
So if we get the big jobs
And we make the big money
When we look back now
Will our jokes still be funny?
Will we still remember everything we learned in school?
Still be trying to break every single rule
Will little brainy Bobby be the stockbroker man?
Can Heather find a job that won't interfere with her tan?
I keep, I keep thinking that it's not goodbye
Keep on thinking it's a time to fly
And this is how it feels
As we go on
We remember
All the times we
Had together
And as our lives change
Come whatever
We will still be
Friends forever
Will we think about tomorrow like we think about now?
Can we survive it out there?
Can we make it somehow?
I guess I thought that this would never end
And suddenly it's like we're women and men
Will the past be a shadow that will follow us 'round?
Will these memories fade when I leave this town
I keep, I keep thinking that it's not goodbye
Keep on thinking it's a time to fly
As we go on
We remember
All the times we
Had together
And as our lives change
Come whatever
We will still be
Friends forever
The first time i listen to this song was in my secondary year.. when i need to leave my friends and my school during form five. Next, it was during my form six years in SAB ended. ALthough that time it is not the real graduation.. but this song jus sound good as it really meaningful and didnt sound that sad as the auld lang syne.. where is time to bid farewell to people around you. And this song.. i listen to it again... this year.. as it is the real graduation.. Few weeks before the real day, a fren share this song with me with her mp3. She told me this song suit me as graduation will be coming soon.. and at that moment, i jus listen to the song tentatively as i really like this song very much. And when i reach home, i jus go look for the vitamin C single album on graduation. I played the song again and again.. listen to it many times... before,during and after the convocation... And finally the officially graduation day is over and this time is also the time that i got the most feeling on this song.. Therefore, i would like to dedicate this song to all my frens who had graduated recently or to those who will be graduating soon... Enjoy the song and the lyrics.....All the best in the future and do keep in touch..... Missing all of u...........
Sunday, August 06, 2006
Dunno what to do...
Considerations for others..
Things get complicated..
Very headache..
dunno what to do..
dunno how to decide..
Why so difficult to make a decision?
a decision that everyone would be happy for it..
a decision that i will not feel bad with..
Hai... why things that is so simple yet can be so complicated...
really no ideas....
Things get complicated..
Very headache..
dunno what to do..
dunno how to decide..
Why so difficult to make a decision?
a decision that everyone would be happy for it..
a decision that i will not feel bad with..
Hai... why things that is so simple yet can be so complicated...
really no ideas....
Wednesday, August 02, 2006
Life
For the longest time, it seemed that life was about to start. Real life. But there was always some obstacle along the way, an ordeal to get through, some work to be finished, some time to be given, a bill to be paid. Then life would start.
Wednesday, July 26, 2006
Fool..
Being so blur, confuse of what happening..
taking initiative to ask and know further..
From not feeling to join but tolerate..
Taking initiative and thinking positively..
But at the end,
How sad.. that no matter what u try to tolerate..
and the result is jus being a fool of..
Frustrated, temper, anger..
nothing.. but jus speechless.
negative feeling jus torturing...
so of all.. be cheer ful and happy..
Is the best thing can be done...
taking initiative to ask and know further..
From not feeling to join but tolerate..
Taking initiative and thinking positively..
But at the end,
How sad.. that no matter what u try to tolerate..
and the result is jus being a fool of..
Frustrated, temper, anger..
nothing.. but jus speechless.
negative feeling jus torturing...
so of all.. be cheer ful and happy..
Is the best thing can be done...
Tuesday, July 25, 2006
The old and the daughter..
The day I meet with them. It has been ages that I didn’t meet them there. The very last time I met with them in that house, which the memory a bit blur in my mind is the time I was really young.. Most probably I am jus in my primary years. I cant remember exactly when.. but I guess is the lower primary years.
The old woman and her daughter who is mute who live the top floor of the flat. In my younger years, I feel sympathy on them. Feel sympathy for the old woman, who is old enough but still need to climb so many floors without lift and doing some business daily by selling food to make some money for living. It is not that she do not have any children that care for them.. but this old woman just stubborn enough wan to rely on herself and continue her business although her both legs are getting weaker as she grow older.
On the day I met with them… The different that I see and the different feeling that I have.. I just spent probably half an hour there at their house the other day. The old woman is strong and stubborn as before.. She hardly walks as she recently fell down and hurt her legs. Watching her pushing the square steel chair, humpbacked and trying to make each step without help of anyone can really make people around realize how much this old woman would struggle to live without people’s help.
Her daughter.. Still the same but I guess she much more older now. I saw her with some white hairs and her face skin that wrinkled. When I was young, I dislike to talk to her as I cant understand what she saying. She always with her hand sign language. But this time, the feeling is different… I feel that I really try to understand what she trying to tell me with the sign language.. although I still cant understand it well but I guess it not that important that I didn’t understand.. but maybe what most important is I spent time trying to listen to her. She seem to be a very happy go lucky person although she is speechless. Jus feel that, all this while she really rarely have someone she can talk to. No matter she is happy or sad, she will not be able to blurt out.
On that fine day, jus coincident that I happen to drop by and give a little helping hand. But the old woman already keep on saying thanks to me… which really make me feel uneasy…jus feel that jus a little help that I think it is not worth for a single thanks or even that I didn’t really gave much help… While her daughter jus keep on trying to entertain me and serving me with water.. Jus wonder people like this old woman and her daughter who live a simple living but really appreciating each of the moments they have in life and every single things given to them.. But in our daily life, do we really take the opportunities to really appreciating things we have, the people around us and what is given to us.. Sometimes people do not realize, or sometimes people do realize. Although people realize but they still cant make sure we appreciating every moments given.. There will be always something that we regret and never treasure well.. Therefore, we can jus always remind ourselves to appreciate every single things no matter is the good or bad.. IT is still something worth to treasure of in our daily life..
The old woman and her daughter who is mute who live the top floor of the flat. In my younger years, I feel sympathy on them. Feel sympathy for the old woman, who is old enough but still need to climb so many floors without lift and doing some business daily by selling food to make some money for living. It is not that she do not have any children that care for them.. but this old woman just stubborn enough wan to rely on herself and continue her business although her both legs are getting weaker as she grow older.
On the day I met with them… The different that I see and the different feeling that I have.. I just spent probably half an hour there at their house the other day. The old woman is strong and stubborn as before.. She hardly walks as she recently fell down and hurt her legs. Watching her pushing the square steel chair, humpbacked and trying to make each step without help of anyone can really make people around realize how much this old woman would struggle to live without people’s help.
Her daughter.. Still the same but I guess she much more older now. I saw her with some white hairs and her face skin that wrinkled. When I was young, I dislike to talk to her as I cant understand what she saying. She always with her hand sign language. But this time, the feeling is different… I feel that I really try to understand what she trying to tell me with the sign language.. although I still cant understand it well but I guess it not that important that I didn’t understand.. but maybe what most important is I spent time trying to listen to her. She seem to be a very happy go lucky person although she is speechless. Jus feel that, all this while she really rarely have someone she can talk to. No matter she is happy or sad, she will not be able to blurt out.
On that fine day, jus coincident that I happen to drop by and give a little helping hand. But the old woman already keep on saying thanks to me… which really make me feel uneasy…jus feel that jus a little help that I think it is not worth for a single thanks or even that I didn’t really gave much help… While her daughter jus keep on trying to entertain me and serving me with water.. Jus wonder people like this old woman and her daughter who live a simple living but really appreciating each of the moments they have in life and every single things given to them.. But in our daily life, do we really take the opportunities to really appreciating things we have, the people around us and what is given to us.. Sometimes people do not realize, or sometimes people do realize. Although people realize but they still cant make sure we appreciating every moments given.. There will be always something that we regret and never treasure well.. Therefore, we can jus always remind ourselves to appreciate every single things no matter is the good or bad.. IT is still something worth to treasure of in our daily life..
Simple care can be yet so complicated...
Care,
We might always stand a chance to be the one who care for others and as well as being the one to be care of.. jus depend on situation and what role we are playing on. But which way we play the role most.. or which is the better role.. or izzit a better role there...
Being the one who care for others.. the care we give is hopefully appreciated or welcome by others.. and not a burden to others.. the care and the help we trying to give is hopefully benefit the other and the one we care for.. But we may not underestimate that it might not always turn the positive way.. it might be a burden, a frustration or worsen the situation.. Thus, in this situation.. how much a care should go into? or it might be the time should really think of whether the person to be care wanted someone care or not? Sometimes, never hesitate that people may not want care but need silent..
BEing the one to be care of.. appreciating...happy,feel thankful.. or the negative site.... of frustration!!! Sometimes, people hope to be care of.. but turn up no one care for them.. and it is so depressed for them for not having someone to care for them.. not even familes that they hav to care for them.. orphanage.. they need parents care but they dun have it...but when there are people to care for them.. they may complain they care too much... PEople with families.. may complain families care too much...People feel frustrated to explain and inform too much...When look back.. it jus seem as those who have someone who care for them are not feeling grateful and appreciating.. Not only in family, it occurs anywhere to anyone of the communities.. among friends, among couples, among married couple, among neighbours, among relatives, among people to people relationships
Positive of care.. people learnt to appreciate and be glad and never take things for granted.. while the negative side.. care created jealousy and expectation.. Jealousy occur when people who care didnt manage their care well for everyone..While expectation happen to people who should be care of or people who care for others..
In a positive way of living.. How likely we are to manage care.. How we manage our care for people and how to manage people care on us.. to avoid any of the negatives outcomes... A simple care might bring a smile, while care can be so simple yet so complicated..
Take time thinking about the one you care and the one who care for u.. Do we really manage the care we gave well....or do we care enough for the one who really need our care? and do we really appreciating and no complain about the one who cares so much for us...
We might always stand a chance to be the one who care for others and as well as being the one to be care of.. jus depend on situation and what role we are playing on. But which way we play the role most.. or which is the better role.. or izzit a better role there...
Being the one who care for others.. the care we give is hopefully appreciated or welcome by others.. and not a burden to others.. the care and the help we trying to give is hopefully benefit the other and the one we care for.. But we may not underestimate that it might not always turn the positive way.. it might be a burden, a frustration or worsen the situation.. Thus, in this situation.. how much a care should go into? or it might be the time should really think of whether the person to be care wanted someone care or not? Sometimes, never hesitate that people may not want care but need silent..
BEing the one to be care of.. appreciating...happy,feel thankful.. or the negative site.... of frustration!!! Sometimes, people hope to be care of.. but turn up no one care for them.. and it is so depressed for them for not having someone to care for them.. not even familes that they hav to care for them.. orphanage.. they need parents care but they dun have it...but when there are people to care for them.. they may complain they care too much... PEople with families.. may complain families care too much...People feel frustrated to explain and inform too much...When look back.. it jus seem as those who have someone who care for them are not feeling grateful and appreciating.. Not only in family, it occurs anywhere to anyone of the communities.. among friends, among couples, among married couple, among neighbours, among relatives, among people to people relationships
Positive of care.. people learnt to appreciate and be glad and never take things for granted.. while the negative side.. care created jealousy and expectation.. Jealousy occur when people who care didnt manage their care well for everyone..While expectation happen to people who should be care of or people who care for others..
In a positive way of living.. How likely we are to manage care.. How we manage our care for people and how to manage people care on us.. to avoid any of the negatives outcomes... A simple care might bring a smile, while care can be so simple yet so complicated..
Take time thinking about the one you care and the one who care for u.. Do we really manage the care we gave well....or do we care enough for the one who really need our care? and do we really appreciating and no complain about the one who cares so much for us...
Sunday, July 09, 2006
MMM
MMM-The orientation week for the new comer of the university. Went back to Uni recently and while waiting the other day, i saw a bunch of the new comers having the gaming session. It make me reflect back my MMM week past three years when i step in this uni. It should be a fun week.. but as for me its more of a nightmare. Dunno why but it jus seem like a dream and past... So fast threee years i spent in UKm and now is time to leave and grad!
It jus remind me of the day i check the internet. when i found myself getting the admission to UKM.. it is really joy.. but it is sad that one of my good friend cant manage to make it to national university.. It is really sad as for me i think that she is a very smart and intelligent person.. but how come such a person cant get a place to the uni.. at the meanwhile she is there with a few of us checking the admission status.. of all she is the only one cant get in. Therefore although we are happy but it turn to be gloomy..
Next is the time to get into the orientation week.. i was placed to stayed in KKM.. the biggest and and most far kolej at that moment.. from that kolej to my faculty by walking it need more than half an hour. dunno whether lucky or not, as when i first go in... i am sharing a room with a coursemate.. at that moment it is better than some other people as i dunno anyone there. so the life in the kolej jus begin with this coursemate. In the orientation week, not really having fun as dunno anyone there but jus my roommate.. and jus more of socialising with many people although u dun wish too.. then of course being fool by those seniors and facilitators. Running from the cafetaria to the room to change in 5 mins the first nite. I still remember my first night there, it jus feel so lonely and sad as u have no one close to u there or even someone u can really talk to. Jus all stranger around, and the first nite jus dunno why too emotional till i have tears. but luckily very fast i told myself.. to be strong and independent.. it is really time to learn and i manage to go thru it.. from there i try to tell myself to enjoy each day and soon the orientation week will past.. but really the orientation week sem so suffer.. i jus din feel any freedom.. and hated it. The perang dectar, sitting in cafetaria being lecture all the time and early morning a moral talk by the senior.. and making frens with people dun really treat u as friends.. the feeling is really bad.. Then the game session not fun at all... not as fun as what i saw the other day.. maybe because of the kolej is big and many occupants.. so din really get the fun of it.. Thats why, the orientation week seem to be a nightmare to me rather than a good experience.
After the orientation week, everything seem better as there are freedom. But seem that i jus know my roommate who is my coursemate.. so at that moment jus go everywhere with her.. my roommate was a study maniac... so most of the time she want me go library with her.. it is really bored for me.. but no choice.. and that first year really bored.. cause the group of frens i ahve there are the types of quiet and silent.. i mean hardly have fun with them.. not the same type person..
Therefore, MMM is the time u know new friends and choose the friends that u wan to get along with. But of course at that time that u dunno anyone it is good to have frens. although a hi and bye frens is also good.. as there is someone to keep u accompany when it is really bored or the time u have a lot of questions in our mind that u wish someone can provide some answers. But from what i saw the other day is a totally different situation.. where i saw those new comers is so happy and enjoying themselves.. It can always saw them with a smile on their face.. Maybe in a smaller kolej, it is more different and more esy to get close with people. But really glad to see those facilitator and so as the students was having so much fun at the carpark the other days...
Thursday, July 06, 2006
Hello and Goodbye
Two simple greetings that we use to learn in our early age... During our childhood time, teacher always teach us to say hello when we meet anyone while goodbye when leaving.. till today we still apply this manners.
But it seem like it is always easier to say hello then goodbye! There is a TV programme of Hello and Goodbye in Aust.. and from there.. I can always see that Hello always with a happy smile or happy tears... while goodbye always seem so hard and difficult..cause goodbye hardly with a smile.. although it do.. but it always with a sad smile.. And normally it ended with tears.. Why people have tears.. The feelings and tears of missing their loved ones.. or jus worried about the people behind them.. But when look back.. there will not have goodbye without having hello.. Jus like a human life.. when we are born.. ppl around welcome by smile and a big hello.. while a human pass away.. they left the loved one with tears and goodbye forever...
Dunno why have the feeling to blog on this hello and goodbye.. but jus simply. maybe too many people for me to say hello and goodbye at the same time.. " hello, hie , how are you.. and bye, goodbye, take care and keep in touch!!"
Thats Life!!!
But it seem like it is always easier to say hello then goodbye! There is a TV programme of Hello and Goodbye in Aust.. and from there.. I can always see that Hello always with a happy smile or happy tears... while goodbye always seem so hard and difficult..cause goodbye hardly with a smile.. although it do.. but it always with a sad smile.. And normally it ended with tears.. Why people have tears.. The feelings and tears of missing their loved ones.. or jus worried about the people behind them.. But when look back.. there will not have goodbye without having hello.. Jus like a human life.. when we are born.. ppl around welcome by smile and a big hello.. while a human pass away.. they left the loved one with tears and goodbye forever...
Dunno why have the feeling to blog on this hello and goodbye.. but jus simply. maybe too many people for me to say hello and goodbye at the same time.. " hello, hie , how are you.. and bye, goodbye, take care and keep in touch!!"
Thats Life!!!
Saturday, June 24, 2006
Results and the process
Sumtime.. Parents jus dun understand what their children want.. Parents may jus look on the side that they think is important without concerning the children need and wants.. But of all it depending o what kind of parents we have.. sum parents they will try to talk to children and und.. but sum they jus didnt talk much to their children and jus think the way they think should be the way thier children think!
Sumtime is the results that parents will care of.. whetehr it beneficial or not.. but parents neever think or even wan to know about the process and the progress that their children go through all the way to achieve the result. no matter the result is good or not. Is that really does matter??? Isn't it the process of goiing through and how the child go through and enjoy the process is much more important that jus the results.. i really dun und.. Jus feel taht the process of we going through is much more important than the results.. althought the result is not good but the children enjoy the time going through.. so isn't it worth more than anything..
I jus cant agree with parents that never even want to care or understand their child process of going through anything in their life but jus the results.. a simple example is jus .. parents usually look for the results of their children.. but they never consider about the process their children going thru all the while in their studies process.. What if a child din score good results but enjoy the studies time.. learn and play around. And i gues this child will be more success as this child will have a more social development and may be more easy goin, and sociable.. that a child who always keep on books. without going socializing.. The child may be good and inteligent. but when this child come to the working society or community.. this child might not be a success or happy person!
Maybe today parents.. din realize of this importance.. or maybe they do know but never want to change or even care about.. i dunno.. but this is how i feel that today parents need to change their style of educating and supporting their children.. or else it may jus ended up the children refuse to talk much to the parents.. as the parents seem to be not understanding their child.. Dunno whetehr wat i think of today is rite or not.. but this is how i feel.....
Sumtime is the results that parents will care of.. whetehr it beneficial or not.. but parents neever think or even wan to know about the process and the progress that their children go through all the way to achieve the result. no matter the result is good or not. Is that really does matter??? Isn't it the process of goiing through and how the child go through and enjoy the process is much more important that jus the results.. i really dun und.. Jus feel taht the process of we going through is much more important than the results.. althought the result is not good but the children enjoy the time going through.. so isn't it worth more than anything..
I jus cant agree with parents that never even want to care or understand their child process of going through anything in their life but jus the results.. a simple example is jus .. parents usually look for the results of their children.. but they never consider about the process their children going thru all the while in their studies process.. What if a child din score good results but enjoy the studies time.. learn and play around. And i gues this child will be more success as this child will have a more social development and may be more easy goin, and sociable.. that a child who always keep on books. without going socializing.. The child may be good and inteligent. but when this child come to the working society or community.. this child might not be a success or happy person!
Maybe today parents.. din realize of this importance.. or maybe they do know but never want to change or even care about.. i dunno.. but this is how i feel that today parents need to change their style of educating and supporting their children.. or else it may jus ended up the children refuse to talk much to the parents.. as the parents seem to be not understanding their child.. Dunno whetehr wat i think of today is rite or not.. but this is how i feel.....
Morning
A fine sat morning.. that i woke up early.. haha.. really suprise to woke up early instead of jus still sleeping.. as last nite dun really sleep taht early..sum how.. is not that i am not tired or sleepy but jus that i cant get into sleep.. dunno why it is so dry and the nose is block two side that i hardly breath.. ju like struggling hard to get a breath.. then disturbance from sms.. and etc... so all this jus make me gotta wake up although i dun wan to! sigh.. later in the evening must be very tired and sleepy..
Away
i guess.. i better blog something as i really left here for quite some time.. if still dun blog anything i guess it is like a month without blogging any! anyway.. really feel weird as this is the first time i left my blog so long away without any updates.. hmm..i guess mostly because i am away.. dunno.. suppose to have lotsa to blog.. but recent prob is..i always only blog about the past.. i mean the past thing that i want to blog but i didnt blog at that time.. so it make me to a confucious as i shd blog about now or the past that i wan blog.. sigh.. really pening! oh maybe cause i am in a holiday mood that i intent not to do any.. i really dunno..
Thursday, May 25, 2006
Nightmare
SLeeping time.. long time time i dun have any dreams.. due to not enough time for sleeping and exhaustion.. so normally once i dozes off and thats it.. but this two nights... Jus having dreams.. not good dream but nightmare.. on tues nite.. Sleep around 2+am. but after i dozed off a while and i dreamt!! i dream off i lose my friend laptop.. i really stunt.. cause the dream is so true that i do ask myself am i dreaming in the dream.. and i was told by myself that i am not dreaming.. i really lost my frens laptop because of of careless to put in my car.. and why i am having the laptop with me also because i call my friend to bring along.. in the dream when i know i am not dreaming.. i feel so much guilt on me.. and i really dunno how to apologize or get back all the stuff in the laptop for her..i feeel really really sorry but dunno what i can do cause nothing can replace back this precious thing of her!! and finally i am awake and i asking myself again i am dreaming right!! i asking myself many Qs... and making sure that it is a dream as i didnt have my friend laptop with me and i didnt lost it... Fuh~
Then came yesterday nite.. was very tired.. sleep quite early but later on i was awake by few phone calls.. and i online till 1+am i guess.. and really terrible.. i dream again... and it was nightmare again.. gosh.. this time.. it is worst.. dunno how that i am with my group of friends after yumcha on the way back home.. but i went to the wrong pathway.. so i gotta back alone.. but funny was in the dream i am not driving a car but a motorcycle.. i driving along a small, dark and quiet road.. and suddenly there is this big fat malay woman behind me.. she jus keep folllowing at the back.. i feel so strange i try to run away from her.. but i cant.. then from driving motorcycle..dunno why i am jus walking.. and i getting more slow... slow and slower till i getting more and more curious and sweating + nervous.. but before i am able to say anything.. the big fat woman jus came approach nearer and the last few words i heard from her was.. 'itulah siapa suruh jalan seorang' and she jus take out a sharp and long knife and push forward towards my back.. and then i am hurt and she jus continue as she wanna take revenge on me and chopped me into pieces.. that time i jus feel so much and pain and finaly i get kill by her.. when i realize i am dead.. and that is the time i awake.. i realize.. shit.. i had another terrible nightmare..and it is also around the same time. about 2+am again..there goes my night.. cant sleep well. and feel so much uneasy..
anyway really strange to have this kind of dreams.. but hopefully no more nightmare tonight... i am praying hard... i think i really need myself exhausted till no time to dream while sleping..Gosh!!!
Then came yesterday nite.. was very tired.. sleep quite early but later on i was awake by few phone calls.. and i online till 1+am i guess.. and really terrible.. i dream again... and it was nightmare again.. gosh.. this time.. it is worst.. dunno how that i am with my group of friends after yumcha on the way back home.. but i went to the wrong pathway.. so i gotta back alone.. but funny was in the dream i am not driving a car but a motorcycle.. i driving along a small, dark and quiet road.. and suddenly there is this big fat malay woman behind me.. she jus keep folllowing at the back.. i feel so strange i try to run away from her.. but i cant.. then from driving motorcycle..dunno why i am jus walking.. and i getting more slow... slow and slower till i getting more and more curious and sweating + nervous.. but before i am able to say anything.. the big fat woman jus came approach nearer and the last few words i heard from her was.. 'itulah siapa suruh jalan seorang' and she jus take out a sharp and long knife and push forward towards my back.. and then i am hurt and she jus continue as she wanna take revenge on me and chopped me into pieces.. that time i jus feel so much and pain and finaly i get kill by her.. when i realize i am dead.. and that is the time i awake.. i realize.. shit.. i had another terrible nightmare..and it is also around the same time. about 2+am again..there goes my night.. cant sleep well. and feel so much uneasy..
anyway really strange to have this kind of dreams.. but hopefully no more nightmare tonight... i am praying hard... i think i really need myself exhausted till no time to dream while sleping..Gosh!!!
Monday, May 08, 2006
Really dunno!!!
The things that i wan blog. i ended up didnt blog.. the things that i need to do now, i ended didnt do any now but came in to blog... Aiks.. really dunno why.. really not having the right mood to do the right thing. Blogging.. actually a way to express myself.. but sometime.. i jus thought of blogging may lead to think of many things.. dunno why i got this type of feeling.. Or maybe not blogging which cause the many thinking but jus the mind keep on thinking and the world keep on changing that cause people to keep on thinking many many things.
I suppose to be free and i suppose to be busy.. really dunno am i really busy or really free.. And things which should be doin and rush out.. but i am still doin nothing.. Aiks.. i really dunno what to do.. So many days have been like that... i really wonder.. Hmmm.. now i am planning to start doin at night.. hopefully i really can.. and i am really doin it.. Jus like this afternoon.. i plan doin it but ended up doin nothing.. Sigh~ hope the same incident do not happen again.... Praying hard tonight will start doin my work.. and i am really need to do it.....
Sunday, May 07, 2006
Goin abstracting
"Good life starts only when you stop expecting and wanting a better ones"
God i guess i am into abstracting again... cause in my mind things that i think of and things that i wan to blog is really abstract... cause i am having a lot of question in my mind.. and the changes and happening made me think of the abstract thing.. i wonder why.. and i guess no one wil be able to tell me why unless i found the answer from what i going through.. Life is unpredictable and full of questions!!!!
Sunday, April 30, 2006
Day by days
Time seem to be passing so fast..
And it is really fast...
Missing everything..
surroundings,environment and peoples..
*feelings*
Tuesday, April 18, 2006
VIva
After this final viva presentation i thought finally the big stone will be moved out but seem as the weight of the stone have be increased.. What a dull day of presentation.. Getting so frustated, speechless yet so sad... Frustated is because i feel the examiner is ridiculuos in some ways.. Speechless is in term of i dunno what to answer anymore as i guess it is useless to say much more!! Sad .. why i am sad.. it is not about i worry about my gred or because being accuse and scolded so innocently.. but is i dun understand.. why i have put so much efforts to do the best to satisfied and meet the requirements by my lec but in return and the outcomes is seem like what my lec require is not important at all but what the examiner wants seem to be more important... almost need to redo the whole thing..it seem that the earlier instruction that i had follow is useless what i have done earlier and seem like what i think is important in this research seem to be meaningless.. cause in the conclusion is not based on what it satisfied my supervisor.. Can feel so useless and not worth it to continue or put any more efforts on it.. but i have no choice but still need to continue to work it out.. I have no blame on my lecturer but i really suprise that she came to comfort me which make me burst to a few drops of tears after the presentation end.. My first time to have tears after a presentation.. Gosh!!! Even myself so surprise why i have tears.. really unbelievable!
Sunday, April 16, 2006
Acceptance
Acceptance is the answer to all my problems today... I can find no serenity until I Accept that person, place, thing, or situations being exactly the way it is supposed to be at this moment.
We need to have great patient and true heart to learn what is acceptance.. What is the best acceptance... How we should learn to accept and give away.. Acceptance seem so importance as we din manage to accept what it is... therefore we may burden and keeping ourselves turning around the same matter.. turning in the same circle.. Until we get to accept.. we will soon find the open door.. and correct pathway to guide us out of the trap that we set for ourselves..
Although we trap ourselves and it is also us who seek the way out.. but we always din realize the trapped is created by us.. it is only when we learn to take things easily and we realize what really we need and what the acceptance we need, to keep on our appreciation!
We need to have great patient and true heart to learn what is acceptance.. What is the best acceptance... How we should learn to accept and give away.. Acceptance seem so importance as we din manage to accept what it is... therefore we may burden and keeping ourselves turning around the same matter.. turning in the same circle.. Until we get to accept.. we will soon find the open door.. and correct pathway to guide us out of the trap that we set for ourselves..
Although we trap ourselves and it is also us who seek the way out.. but we always din realize the trapped is created by us.. it is only when we learn to take things easily and we realize what really we need and what the acceptance we need, to keep on our appreciation!
Thursday, April 13, 2006
You raise me up
When I am down and, oh my soul, so weary;
When troubles come and my heart burdened be;
Then, I am still and wait here in the silence,
Until you come and sit awhile with me.
You raise me up,
so I can stand on mountains;
You raise me up,
to walk on stormy seas;
I am strong, when I am on your shoulders;
You raise me up:
To more than I can be.
You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains;
You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas;
I am strong, when I am on your shoulders;
You raise me up: To more than I can be.
There is no life - no life without its hunger;
Each restless heart beats so imperfectly;
But when you come and I am filled with wonder,
Sometimes, I think I glimpse eternity.
You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains;
You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas;
I am strong, when I am on your shoulders;
You raise me up: To more than I can be.
You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains;
You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas;
I am strong, when I am on your shoulders;
~ originated by Josh Groban ~
A typical song at this moment. Many people by our side raising us up.. Parents raise us up to be a great human, have the correct moral values and the positive way of learning.... frens raise us up when we are downs and we went to the wrong pathway.. we have our companion raise us up in the future of our life for building and cherish a family together.. and lastly we have many unknown person who walk past our life and make us learn a lesson of the life and their experiences..
Thursday, April 06, 2006
Emotion
Emotion seem to be so abstract..
Difficult to be predicted..
Being too emotionally..
Easily get influence...
Mood to be turn down..
Cheering up..
Is it that easy?
Monday, April 03, 2006
Our single days...
In every single days,
We may have many things happening around,
The things we hoped.. the things we wished never happened,
The things that will brings us happiness,
The things that brings us sorrow,
Things come and goes as we cant control,
What we can control??
Our emotion towards the happen...
Our thinking towards the happen...
And... finally our attitude towards the happen..
What we did in every single day,
May jus a small deed,
But it may mean a lot to someone...
Appreciating means a lot... to that someone so as us..
If we din manage to understand the importance of appreciating..
Regrets came..
Appreciate and look through the regrets that we have with a smile!!!
Start each day with a smile than with tears....
Sunday, March 26, 2006
Unhappy vs happiness
Long time didnt blog.. as time were too busy to blog.. but now i feel like blogging but jus dunno.. how... this week so busy but yet so many things happening.. Jus knowing that many people and frens around are unhappy... Dunno what can be done to help.. but jus feel that.. anyone of u... reading my blog and feeling unhappy or sad.. i jus wanna wish.. that happiness will soon granted to you all... To those who is unhappy, have probs and frustated.... do take it easy and hope u all found the happiness soon...
"When one door of happiness closes, another opens; but often we look so long at the closed door that we do not see the one which has opened for us" (Ann Landers)
"When one door of happiness closes, another opens; but often we look so long at the closed door that we do not see the one which has opened for us" (Ann Landers)
Tuesday, March 21, 2006
Saturday, March 11, 2006
Tuesday, March 07, 2006
Saturday, February 25, 2006
The Meanings...
What it means??
E - extremely HATED by most of the students
X - xtraordinary if there are people who enjoy it
A - a grade that students want in exams
M - a Must for graduating
~a week for examinations~
Wednesday, February 15, 2006
Sunday, February 12, 2006
Rapid kl tour
THE NEW RAPID KL... The smart way to travel.. RM2.00 for unlimited rides.. Very impress and enjoy with the service given.. Kind and helpful drivers.. who help and explain how we should transfer from bus to bus to our destination. Really convenient as we can jus board the link bus in few minutes once we drop off at the bus station.. A kl city shuttle that connect places of interest.. KLCC - KL central - Titiwangsa - Medan pasar - Maluri.. So awesome.. really enjoy today trip around kl with this rapid kl bus.. really feel like a tourist.. taking pics everywhere..kakaka...
Saturday, February 11, 2006
the terrible jam
A TERRIBLE JAM I HAD ON FRIDAY
A 2 hours jam i had on friday from my way back along the highway from ukm-kl.. jammed till i am too bored.. with the camera in the bag so manage to catch some pic..haha..SIGH~ fuh..as seen in the pic.. stupid touch and go and smart tag lane.. is even worst.. crowded with cars queueing for our turn...meanwhile the others lane on the left..(normal lane) is not crowded and no long queue..weird huh.. i also wonder.. why it is worst with tng card and the so call smart tag..
Monday, February 06, 2006
CNY mood
Still in the chinese new year mood.. so boring. today attend class.. gotta sit for 3 hours lecture ady...Not so into studies yet cause still in holidays mood.. but after today class.. i realize that i really need prepare my feeling and myself well to concentrate in studies.. NO MORE HOLIDAYS LER cause realize that really got many works not done yet.. many work gotta hand up.. and mid term exam coming liao.. sien.., time to study ler... and not forgetting mid term break coming soon.. mean jus left my last half term at ukm.... Hai.. time seem to be passing so fast... WHY LER...
Wednesday, February 01, 2006
FGS DONG ZEN
Lantern cum Flower Festival 2006 at
FGS Dong Zen, Jenjarom, Selangor.
During this chinese new year period, they are having an indoor flora exhibition... really awesome with the decorative of different types of garden with different view of flowers. In this period, there are also other activities.. like praying ceremony, dharma talk, costume parade( haha.. i was lucky to catch this appearance on the day i went!), cultural show, light offering ceremony, pottery exhibition, wooden buddha sculpture exhibition and sutra caligraphy. And the night scenery was really great... therefore.. best time to visit there i guess is during evening.. There are some places where very nice to take photo during day time.. and some places gotta catch the night view...So.. people who are goin or interested to go.. better choose the right timing.. =P
Sunday, January 29, 2006
Friday, January 27, 2006
Wednesday, January 25, 2006
Wednesday, January 18, 2006
MY masterpiece
Just dunno since when i started drawing many many cute cute character.. Mostly character is cute but when i draw it.. and the outcome became not so cute.. A monkey but ppl said is a hippo, a dinosaur but become crocodile, a dunno what character but become a mixed wolf and dog character.. A slim, cute and beautiful character become a fat and ugly character.. I never judge myself good in drawing.. so as i admit i so weak on that as my results.. always be gred...C,D or E..so jus cant help it as i never improve after so many years.. never artistic!!!
Anonymous
Haha.. anonymous..
Never thought we only share our blog when u came back here. Or.. I shd said without ur forcing or insist that u want my blog address.. I will never know u blog.. and without ur blog.. I guess I never know the real you.. the real feeling and what u are up to now. I do read on ur blog.. but still haven manage to cover half of it.. well.. need more time.. but found a lot of things there.. found the real you..
I remember that day we jus realize that we know each other for about 9 years.. and it gonna be 10 yrs soon.. all this while jus know that u are very fussy, irritating sometimes(as u purposely), and crazy.. Ur prob.. jus know that u keep to urself and hardly want to share it out.. when u sad.. u jus need someone to talk or maybe someone to listen to u, to talk or entertain u although u are not sharing ur doubts.. I still remember that time u always call up and we chit chatting some lousy stuff and no point stuff on the phone.. and ur hobby.. ring me up in the middle of the night.. chat.. not letting me sleep.. and when I am awake.. u will said it is time to sleep
There was one incident I will never forget.. the longest period we quarrel and din talk to each other in schools.. was 1+1/2 yrs..wow.. think back really a record.. but it jus turn to a smile on the face when think about this after so many yrs..
It has been about dunno how many yrs u are not here.. I also forget.. but jus remember that time u told me u will goin oversea.. and it was like.. gosh.. u gotta go so far away.. and that time really worry what u will be when back.. worry that u will change.. worry u will not be the same.. worry that we will not be as close as b4.. worry u are not so crazy..
But really lucky.. lucky after u hav been away for few years but when we meet up.. jus can say that u are the same crazy person!!!
By the way.. about what u realize.. from the way we communicate.. arguing all the time jus as u treating me like ur sis.. I shd said… erm… maybe and it look really alike too…
Wah.. then this mean I lucky??? Wahahahha…
Finally jus wan to let u know.. U will not be alone.. any probs.. u need to share.. there always a bunch of us who are willing to listen!!!.. so take care.. buddy!!! All the Best!!!
Never thought we only share our blog when u came back here. Or.. I shd said without ur forcing or insist that u want my blog address.. I will never know u blog.. and without ur blog.. I guess I never know the real you.. the real feeling and what u are up to now. I do read on ur blog.. but still haven manage to cover half of it.. well.. need more time.. but found a lot of things there.. found the real you..
I remember that day we jus realize that we know each other for about 9 years.. and it gonna be 10 yrs soon.. all this while jus know that u are very fussy, irritating sometimes(as u purposely), and crazy.. Ur prob.. jus know that u keep to urself and hardly want to share it out.. when u sad.. u jus need someone to talk or maybe someone to listen to u, to talk or entertain u although u are not sharing ur doubts.. I still remember that time u always call up and we chit chatting some lousy stuff and no point stuff on the phone.. and ur hobby.. ring me up in the middle of the night.. chat.. not letting me sleep.. and when I am awake.. u will said it is time to sleep
There was one incident I will never forget.. the longest period we quarrel and din talk to each other in schools.. was 1+1/2 yrs..wow.. think back really a record.. but it jus turn to a smile on the face when think about this after so many yrs..
It has been about dunno how many yrs u are not here.. I also forget.. but jus remember that time u told me u will goin oversea.. and it was like.. gosh.. u gotta go so far away.. and that time really worry what u will be when back.. worry that u will change.. worry u will not be the same.. worry that we will not be as close as b4.. worry u are not so crazy..
But really lucky.. lucky after u hav been away for few years but when we meet up.. jus can say that u are the same crazy person!!!
By the way.. about what u realize.. from the way we communicate.. arguing all the time jus as u treating me like ur sis.. I shd said… erm… maybe and it look really alike too…
Wah.. then this mean I lucky??? Wahahahha…
Finally jus wan to let u know.. U will not be alone.. any probs.. u need to share.. there always a bunch of us who are willing to listen!!!.. so take care.. buddy!!! All the Best!!!
Tuesday, January 10, 2006
Words...
Words are communication tools,
Words can express one's feelings,
Words can do many more things,
But not everything can be seen clearly through words.
Action speaks louder than words,
Sometimes words cant do everything.
If only a person knows how to use them,
If only words are perfectly combined,
If only v know how to use words....
Words are communication tools,
Words can express one's feelings,
Words can do many more things,
But not everything can be seen clearly through words.
Action speaks louder than words,
Sometimes words cant do everything.
If only a person knows how to use them,
If only words are perfectly combined,
If only v know how to use words....
Friday, January 06, 2006
Sick.. sick..
Aiks.. sick from the first day of the new year!! coughing..getting better... sore throat..getting better.. and now getting worse again!! haih!! lazy go for doctor also.. jus myself become doc.. prescribe own medicine//haha..
by the way.. i guess should be the weather which causing many people around jus having the same sickness!!
hmm. a busy week.. classes started.. and seem like there are some people who are so free yet some people that are so busy.. but this last sem.. jus seem like a struggle and hectic time for everyone to rush out the thesis.. more and more people having the same prob..; busy about the same thing.. what else??? THESIS!!!! The hot topic that burden all final year students...
Why do we need thesis?? why some lec are so good and why some lec are so lousy and fussy!!
Bsides thesis.. a familiar thing.. assignments!!! haih.. more n more started to get in and loaded!
Argh...having some muscle pains!! all bcoz not use to exercise.. btw hope all go well if having continuous exercise every week.. jus hope..the exercise schedule will be continue!!
tsk..tsk..tsk.. really struggle coughing!! haih.. hope it recover soon.. and dun get worse!!
by the way.. i guess should be the weather which causing many people around jus having the same sickness!!
hmm. a busy week.. classes started.. and seem like there are some people who are so free yet some people that are so busy.. but this last sem.. jus seem like a struggle and hectic time for everyone to rush out the thesis.. more and more people having the same prob..; busy about the same thing.. what else??? THESIS!!!! The hot topic that burden all final year students...
Why do we need thesis?? why some lec are so good and why some lec are so lousy and fussy!!
Bsides thesis.. a familiar thing.. assignments!!! haih.. more n more started to get in and loaded!
Argh...having some muscle pains!! all bcoz not use to exercise.. btw hope all go well if having continuous exercise every week.. jus hope..the exercise schedule will be continue!!
tsk..tsk..tsk.. really struggle coughing!! haih.. hope it recover soon.. and dun get worse!!
Sunday, January 01, 2006
Year...2006
2005 Has sped by..
Now, we need to face 2006......
There may be risks involved,
We may need to face roadblocks,
So stay alert,
Share time with friends,
Jump over obstacles,
With care And caution,
Face challenges,
Remember to laugh
Cooperate, Discover,
Make new friends
Above all...be ready for adventure,
Stick together,
And you will be able to go far...Very far.....
Well, not quite that far....
Always take time to smell the flowers,
Don't forget to relax and enjoy,
And never forget to love those dearest,
May God Bless...
First blog of the year... the new year doesn't seem good and smooth as getting sick jus on the first day of the year!!!
Now, we need to face 2006......
There may be risks involved,
We may need to face roadblocks,
So stay alert,
Share time with friends,
Jump over obstacles,
With care And caution,
Face challenges,
Remember to laugh
Cooperate, Discover,
Make new friends
Above all...be ready for adventure,
Stick together,
And you will be able to go far...Very far.....
Well, not quite that far....
Always take time to smell the flowers,
Don't forget to relax and enjoy,
And never forget to love those dearest,
May God Bless...
First blog of the year... the new year doesn't seem good and smooth as getting sick jus on the first day of the year!!!
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