Bye...Year 2005...

Another hour more is the time to close the curtain for the year of 2005..

Wonder now must be a lotsa people out to bintang walk, the mines, putrajaya, klcc, bangsar and other place of interest to countdown.. waving to the year of 2005 and welcoming the new year.. Year of 2006...

Hmmm.. agree with my fren opinion.. am i being too tired, old enough or cant stand the HuHUHAha... countdown... jus like old people staying at home... although it is abit of this kind of feeling.. but what to do.. no money!!! although got frens urge to come out and join the crowd but jus too tired and too lazy to join in.. maybe the memories of millenium countdown still fresh in mind.. The crowds, the jam, the suffocated, the loss and the missing incident.. too much of memories and experiences....

Hmmm.. Year of 2005.. FAMILY... full of worries in the early of the year.. problems in the mid year and finally end of the year so..so... UNI.. busy year... good achievement in studies... great memories and gain much experiences in PT... but a bit losing touch with coursemates and PT25 big family..excos and childrens.. MYSELF... din achieve much aims.. not much confidence in many things.. not much motion.. and not much of achievements... but gain weight...argh...

So.. Year of 2006.. ermm.. having some plans.. aim.. hopefully having a great start in evertything... furthermore.. year of graduation... sien.. time to think of future.. further studies??? or jus start working??? Year of environment change.. Once uni life end.. things gotta change.. the living environment, frens and others... Gosh.. will be missing the frens that accomodate my uni life for this 3 yrs... the uni.. although too many complains but still... is the place that i got my cert.. and build up my knowledge...hai.. year of 2006... so fast...

Hope everything will be smooth this coming new year!!! Cheersssss.... 2006

HAPPY NEW YEAR ...2006...

burning..

burning..
get so fed up at home..
Jus feel like i should not be at home...
then my life will be easier..

Every year having the same problem.. being so unfair..
Jus feel so speechless..
i wonder.. if voice out dissatisfaction will it be better??
but if i really do.. i guess the big war wil jus begin..
Do i hav the enough patient to remain silent and calm??

Or i shall jus learnt to be smart...
Away from house maybe is a good solution..
Sometimes.. not having much time at home..
really does better.. and feel more comfortable..
Do i really having the correct thinking??
i jus wonder!!

Parents action sometimes jus make their children dun feel like staying at home!!

MY TEMPORARY STAY

WILL BE MISSING ALL OF YOU

Will be missing the time and laughter that i had with them last semester... Have a great stay with the five of them last sem.. Although last semester din spent much time at home with them but still enjoy their companion and the joy we had together.. They make my temporary stay at that place full of merriment, memories and so grateful get to know all of them.. By the way.. i guess i finally leave them in peace.. with my existence in that house.. i really make them busy by disturbing them room to room..hahah...alright.. time to leave but look like i havent finish the task they assign to me.. aiks.. gotta accomplish it as soon as possible!!!

13th DEC.... 2005

Last year on this date.. grandpa was admitted to hospital… having the 2nd attack of stroke and half paralysed.. whole family was so busy rushing up and downs to hospital.. as grandpa condition was quite serious.. early plan when mum and dad planning a great celebration with me jus turn down gloomy…even me dun have the mood..Last year and previous year of this date dun seem a good day as each year some bad thing will jus happen.. still fresh in mind.. in year of 2000 my grandma of mother side jus pass away few days before this date.. and there is one year.. I got a hamster as a birthday present but the hamster died on the same day…

Therefore sometimes.. jus so afraid any bad thing will jus happen again.. But so thankful this year all the bad things jus flew away…Having an enjoyable and happy day on 13th dec this year.. really full of suprises day.. and great part is finally I got a cake this year.. jus seem as a long time din get a cake for bday.. And I still remember I told myself before that if I dun hav a cake this year I will surely buy myself a cake for celebration…hahahah…
Celebration at redbox.. really awesome.. with cakes and big present surprises.. although the cake din taste good but still great as I had a cake this year..finally…and most surprising is… on my 22th birthday.. I got a big and huge PATRICK dog as my birthday present.. really cant imagine.. 22th bday with a huge dog soft toy.. and not forgetting the shirt with the dog…jus wondering. Am I really act so kiddies in front of my frens as most of the times I got soft toy as my present.. well.. I really like it but jus feel like so kiddies.. haih.. what to do.. maybe I am jus like that..hahaha…not forgetting the most important is people around.. having u all celebrating with me that night really make me feel so touch.. especially those who purposely rush from far away.. Thanks seem so little to say for so much!!! Jus feel guilty and sorry as that day was too tired and burden with some problems.. where din really express how happy and grateful I am to hav the time with them on this date…
Celebration at Chilis’… having great time with u all too although jus few of us and not the 7 of us.. by the way I feel so grateful as I always the lucky ones.. to have ky and wh around as most of the time it will be hols during this date..hahah.. well..thanks for the surprise.. ML is really a good actress… act so professionally with sound effect make me without any suspicious signs.. but what a pity to hide at the back of the car.. really salute for having such a superb idea… really got me a shock and numb.. a person who should be at Hong Kong suddenly back to M’sia and wish me with cakes from the back of the restaurant…First saw her really dunno what to say but jus too happy to say anything.. really thanks a lot.. Although the food that night was not that nice but jus the time together was great.. both flavour of the cake taste better than the food I guess..hahaha..
Somehow.. I got a present which related to berries.. things that I hated… gosh a lotion and soap from body shop.. argh.. how come is strawberry….why cant be other flavours??? Why must berries??? Yucky… Luckily it didn’t smell that worst…

So there goes my birthday celebration this year.. Really feel so grateful to have all of you around on this date this year… Not forgetting the most important ppl.. my family.. although they didn’t went out or have a great celebration with me but I really feel their intention to have a nice day with me.. but I think it is enough to know their favours although din manage to go out together.. btw their health is more important than celebration.. Really thankful to have such a great day on this date with all my frens and family..

A tiring week..

wow.. time really past so fast..
this weeek seem jus past in a glance.. didnt realize today is already friday..
Fu~... happy as getting two day rest... as well as two day away from lab work... hah.. feel so relief.. never thought doing lab everyday is so tiring.. tired from walking up and down, tired of waiting, tired of thinking solution to make the result significant.. and tired of working in a tensed and rush hour environment... feel so pressure and hectic.. at first thought it is jus simple.. no really until i try in on my own.. no one to help you but jus alone.. alone to make ur own lab work.. or own to be serious to work out the presentable result and no more free and easy like what lab time in 2nd year..
the most difficult thing is dealing with machine.. be patient to get the turn to use the entire machine.. the patient dealing with lab assistant to help work out the expensive machine.. the guide and help needed to explore the machine.. the do and don't criteria for the sample before running machine.. and the worst when came to borrowing tools from lab assistant and breaking any glass ware.. they will kill u.. with their words.. there is one of my fren who is pending from do her lab for two weeks jus because she break something accidentally.. and now her lab work jus hanging.. and delayed!!!
me.. working almost four days in lab.. waiting and waiting.. doing the lab.. with corrective method.. finally get a solution adn finalize my lab method.. everyt hope to go smoothly as i can start to run my samples on monday.. but jus dunno what is the results.. what if after four days working on so much method to work out the suitable sample to run on the instrusment.. if the end the samples is not giving any results.. what i should do by then.. start all over or giving up.. die hard.. touch wood and hope all go smoothly till i get my results.. pls.. i jus gotta pray hard i guess..

hopefully results can get by the samples that i had prepare these few days and everything can be done before 21th.. so that i can hav a happy and relaxing hols... aiks... really need a break!!!

Chatting..

Online chatting.. seem like it is getting more popular for people to chat using MSN messenger,yahoo messenger,icq and mirc... well.. past few years MIRC seem to be the popular ones.. that people are familiar with it... then it came to ICQ... sending and replying msg and new version came with more functions.. and nowadays we jus heard MSN and yahoo messenger.. well.. today finally i got my own MSN messenger login..hahah.. consider a very outdated action.. as people around jus complaining as i not having a MSN messenger account... Maybe i jus not at the right path.. as most of the people chatting using msn while i jus use my yahoo and icq.. past few weeks.. my frens ask me what is ur msn account.. i told them..sorry i din have one.. as they jus reply...'WHAT...OH GOD!!..how come as people around all using this"
haha.. i jus dun care as i jus feel comfortable with the ones i am using... until today.. my frens finally cant stand me.. as she came to my house so she jus register and download the latest msn messenger in my computer... walau.. look like people getting so aggresive???.. MSN messenger i wonder what so great on this... hahah.. it seem to be a good thing also as i have another addition of chatting messenger...

Decision on life...

Have been thinking on these lately....

A patient that met with an accident.. was lucky enough to be save but a tragedy seem to be happening as the patient is being paralysed from the neck down.. he jus cant move, cant speak and only can express himself and answering questions by blinking on his eyes.. he jus spending the rest of his life on the bed.. he is once a very active boy but now he is jus numbness....he is born from a single parent family.. only have his mother to work hard and save for the living of his son. his living is rely on the machine, rely on his mother to bath him, exercise him and understand him..

One day the patient wish that he will be given a solution, a decision to be given natural death as the solution to end up his burden to his mother, and the solution to end up his efforts to struggle every minutes of life!! From this, many questions occur?? Shall he be given his human rights to make his decision in his life?? Is it correct for him to end up his life or shall he continue to struggle every minutes to the end?? Is there any miracle will happen to him?? A chance for him to recover? Shall the doctor fullfill what the patient decision?? or is the doctor doing the correct thing for saving his life?? Doctor save his life but he for having his life need to suffer for every minutes he live... Have the doctor think of the patient feeling of suffering for the rest of his time but having a chance to continue living!! Do the doctor need to think of this?? What about the mother... the son would like to give up his life while the mother wants his son to struggle and hold on to his life.. Is the mother doing a correct thing by wanting his son to live... Parents was the one who given their child a chance to reach this world and having their life but at the end.. the child should be the one who shall have the rights or the parents should have the rights to give an end to the children life?? Is the mother correct with her perceptions??

A similar incident happen in US.. a wife who suffer from the same condition as the boy... this wife was even doubtful that she didnt manage to let other people know what she wanted the best for herself.. a conflict happens between the husband and the parents of the wife.. the husband wants his wife to have a natural death as he belief this is a better solution for his wife..while the parents disagree and belief thier daughter will prefer to hold on to her life.. In this no one knows what the best and what the patient want... the conflict went up to court and finally an order from the court was foods will not given to the wife... and the wife jus struggle few days of living without foods and finally she jus passed away.. On this.. no one really know is it a solution to the wife or is it jus a force to dead.. will it be a relief for the wife to walk away her life or....

Which decision is the best?? Whose decision should be follow?? a very subjective topic... different people in different role will have its own view.. Shall we jus respect the patient wish or ... really wonder in this kind of situations.... who are the ones having the rights???

Digital photos

Having a digital camera.. make one life more convenient but make more people having more photos and taking up more photos.. Developing photo job seem to be more less often as photos seem to be choosen and gather together in many pieces and develope once.
Previous month.. i develope all my latest photos while i still have some savings... well.. it jus dunno consider a good job or not.. as this month have been so broke.. if i delay till this month likely no money to develope.. but it is jus so unfair.. this month the same photo shop have offer a lower developing price per piece... DOINK!!! From rm0.39 went down to rm0.35.. although it is jus 4cents but when counted in a bulk.. it was like i pay more for about rm8... ARGH.. enough to cover car park expenses...Jus so UNFAIR....hai... fated!!!

Translated Article

A masterpiece of mandarin translated article... quiet meaningful and true.. indeed!!

I want to say thank you to you, because of you, I am not alone
I want to say thank you to you, because of you, I have mails in my mailbox
I want to say thank you to you, because of you, I have someone to talk to when I am lonely and bored
I want to say thank you to you, because of you, I have people to calm me down when I am sad and angry
I want to say thank you to you, because of you, I have a chance to share the great things with people
I want to say thank you to you, for walking thru this life with me.
Hope that you will continue this journey with me, will you?
There was once the relationship with friend is very close
But when you are busy with your own stuff, it is kind of like lost the connection
So, the friendship which is not strong enough to stand this, just gone like that
Ever since, you and your friend become a ‘hi & bye’ friend
The secrets which used to share is no long exist
The feeling of losing a close friend is really bad...
There are many types of friend
Friends that approach when you have benefits for them, ‘Hi & bye friend’, hang out friend
The quantity of these kinds of friends doesn’t matter
But…
For good friends, the priority is given to quality but not quantity
Good friend… you can talk to him/her on anything again and again.
Yet he/she can listen to you patiently till your last word and tell you,
‘Buddy, your ‘technique’ is getting better oh!’
‘Keep it up!’
‘Your love one must be waiting you to be growing up in this relationship.’
And a real good friend, is pouring you cold water when you are happy..
‘You know what, don’t be too happy on this too earlier...’
So what are the topics between you and your friend?
Your deep down heart feelings? Joking around? Or just talk rubbish?
Or maybe some are talking about life principle?
Opinions on your life or perspective towards life?
Sometimes, chatting with friend when you are free, is a great enjoyment.
But, to find a friend that you can really chat with is very hard.
It is extremely difficult to find the one whom you can fully express yourself .
Do you have this friend whom you can talk to?
Misunderstanding is the ‘killer’ of social life,
Communication problems are the ‘drug’ for friendship.
If, there is any weird feelings in your heart,
I hope that both of you can communicate to deal with it.
Because… having a friend,
It depends on many factors… you know.. It is not easy…
But if you think that the person is not worth it… then just let go lo..
Misunderstanding maybe scary,
But I think doubtness is even scary.
Doubtful came from not trusting each other
Maybe,
Misunderstanding is caused by many incidents.
But
Doubt is the results of feeling for not trusting people.
What an awful viewpoint!
Love is undeniable adorable.
But if many things are forgotten due to love…
I think after the love disappear,
The people who desperately need for love will die quickly,
It is like human live without oxygen
Slowly… suffocate in his own world…
People who don’t have love, they will not know the wonderful of love.
People who don’t have friendship, they will not know the beauty of it.