Stay away..

Staying away....
bypassing, avoiding, running away... from lec room..
chicken hearted, anxious.... of meeting my lec...
suspicious of places my lec will be..
and taking different route so that may not meet her..
past few days that i went back there..
but was lucky enough to avoid her...
today.. a safe day.. for not going back.. but..
FATE... the most safe place was the most dangerous place..
URGH... she jus call me up..
and this time no way to run... hai.. SURRENDER!!!

EDUCATION

A friend and I came across this question??
"Is today education influence the thinking of today's students?"
In terms of a mandarin educated person and a malay-english educated person..

A friend that told me a malay-english educated person will never work or putting efforts in getting more privilege for the chinese while a mandarin educated person will be more dedicated and put the efforts in getting the priority for the chinese.. A malay-english educated person may think of malaysian privilege.. which is malay,chinese,indian while a mandarin educated person will really understand the importants and the needed action of getting the privilege for the chinese race.

i wonder why.. is it really the education base that influence our thinking.. i being to the same condition, thinking the same thing.. being a malay-english educated person and surprisingly survive in a chinese and mandarin oriented society.. from dun understand why the chinese must stress the only chinese so much.. till i really can feel the importance and how this kind of efforts is needed... but just wonder is it a wrong perception for the malay-english educated chinese person whose thinking is neutralize and thinking for all races instead of its own race???

What is the perception of chinese educated person towards malay-english educated person?? will this kind of people jus consider malay-english educated person as the chinese who do not protect chinese??? i really wonder..

I being ask many times... do u regret that u dunno chinese? i would said i did.. as a chinese dunno how to read chinese or even write chinese.. really feel ashamed at some times.. but it depend whether we use the language or not.. before this.. i think chinese language not important and didn't feel that i regret as i do not need to use it.. but as i grow.. i found many things we needed chinese language.. for social, working, interpretation or instructions.. although malay-english educated people will feel ashamed of dunno their mother tongue language but it is not what they wish.. as education base for a child is choosen by the parents and the child is not given the chance to choose but jus the chance to learn what language given to them. but sometimes jus feel hurt enough when being laugh or tease of not knowing our own language...

I would said maybe the best combination should be chinese-malay-english education in different stages given to a child.. and parents should give more efforts to educate the children on their mother tongue language... hope in the future there will be more children being educated in their mother tongue language..

UNDECISIVE...

Undecided..
tHinK.. tHinK... tHinK and kEeP on ThInKinG...
advantages cum disadvantages...
SOLUTIONS CUM SETTLEMENT...
go... sTaY.. LeAvinG...
cHanCes.. ChOiCes...
wHat tHe bEsT i Can Do????

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KL...

Situation of KL traffic jam really hardly be overcome.. too many cars in the roads.. more and more people can afford a car.. more and more people needed a car and more and more people need travel such a distance to work and study.. highways and roads still the same.. but cars keep on increasing.. can easily get the picture of it when look at the registration and tender of plat number... a single morning number of car plat being taken really numerous..

Having traffic jam already make people feel impatient.. but it is more terrible when come to the cut-queue thing... it is normal .. but cutting queue when there is only one lane and queueing at the toll... really ridiculous and terrible... moreover is those big bus and big truck... they are not only big but is superb long... cutting queue is wrong summore want to block other people lane... really uncivilized action..

BIG vs SMALL is another common thing.. big buses and trucks especially company trading transport are the big bullies while the victims..in the road.. what else... small little kancils and kenari...

BIG vs SMALL = steel vs milo tin....

~HuSTLe BuStLe CiTy iN tHe DowN cItY~

LiFe MaDe SimPLe

Sunshine and i'll be with you,

in rainy day i shall be with you,

love is no fool,

dreams come true..

And i always be with you...

...fUnNy, moTiVaTinG aNd eDuCatiOnaL MoViE..

BluR...

things keep on bumping the mind..
the goods...worried....
so confused and heavy loads..
things went easy yet so complicated..

rest.... a break...
entertainment... movie...
tired.... restless....

a brand new start for the next hour or a better day... how a relaxing mind need to began....

eLderLy...

OLD AGE...
the last stage people went through before leaving this world..

some of them are conscious... some are speechless...
some on wheelchair.. some without legs, some are blind, deaf or ...
too sick and lying on the bed....
looking at them.. feel so painful in the heart..

a glance on their face.. thought they jus want to be left without any disturbance..
but when start to talk to them..
can deeply understand how happy they are to have someone to talk..
can feel how lonely they are.. how sadly they are to be left there..
how strong they are, and how awful to see they hardly struggle to live every minutes..

they hardly and suffer eating.. refuse eating but still force to eat..
complaining not having good stuff to eat, not enough thing to eat and nothing can be done..
jus everyday sitting waiting for their relative come for visit...
more pityful for those who dun have relatives or relatives been far across the sea..

one thing grateful for them and lucky...
salute!!! the kind-hearted management people...
people who always get scolded, blame and criticise all the time..
they can really understand, caring, giving the best they can...
with one aim... want the elderly feel comfortable, less pain, less sickness...
they contribute a lots.. with jus a sincere heart.. listen to the elderly..
fullfill their needs...

Feeling so painful in the heart looking at the elderly.. feeling so speechless and helpless....

Holiday mood at UKM

Environment at UKM during holidays really peaceful and quiet... lacks of cars in the parking area which is full and pack during classes time, road that full of cars at pusanika seem to be so empty and so wide... Favourite spots.. bakery,pusanika and library all turn to be so empty....

where else...FST seem so busy... people all around here and there.. labs are all open.. people inside busy preparing samples, doing analysis or walking up and down looking for lab assistants...

Holidays doesn't seem to apply as coursemate all is back.. working on labs.. really unbelievable as most of coursemate are home sick person where hardly see them during holidays appearing in ukm... all thanks to THESIS... urgh... running up and down looking for glass ware, chemical materials and cooking in meat lab and food processing room.. gosh.. wonder when i can start my lab work!!!

Early morning reach lab, frens all there... some start doing lab work, some sitting waiting samples, some sitting headache thinking how to make the lab results successful... while i jus sitting happily watching what they do and waiting.... everyone think that i am so fun and free sitting modifying my questionaire happily while they busy and headache on their labs... everyone seem to say what an easy task i have for my thesis...i wonder...Really???

Watching them.. really make me feel so grateful that i make the wise choice on chossing this title.. although was feeling a bit left out of choosing something that people think is weird or maybe too common that mostly people will not choose.. but at the end i realize i am correct.. if i were anyone of them doing one of their title.. i think i gonna be suffering...

All thesis have its own difficulties and problems... Just depends on us to find the solutions and correct way to learn from it.. well... everyone just gotta add oil for our own thesis......

WORK HARD...PLAY HARD....

KHARD...PLAYHARD...

TASKsss....

Fu~.. everything seem back to normal... hmmm.. not starting very normal of the day as been sleeping too much... jus wonder how come it seem so tired and restless.. time to think of stuffs to do.. for a day that seem like many tasks to do.. but jus dunno which task should be done first.. this or that?? or which should be done in hurry??? hmmm.. really no idea... lazy to think... lazy to move into any task.. Maybe shall jus proceed without doing anything..kakkakak..... doink....

WAR AGAINST THESIS!!

headache..headache.. gotta start the war towards thesis.. tonnes of works, limited time... gotta fight wit time, fight with lab schedule, fight with management work and work arrangements.... wa.....wan crazy liao... dun meet lecturer....fan.. meet lecturer ady... more more more fan..... aHhHhHhHhHh....................

~INSPIRATIONAL THOUGHTS OF THE DAY~

" We cannot control life's difficult moments but we can choose to make life less difficult. We cannot control the negative atmosphere of the world, but we can control the atmosphere of our minds. Too often we try to choose and control things we cannot. Too seldom we choose to control what we can -- our attitude."

Jerry....

Each morning I wake up and say to myself, Jerry, you have two choices today. You can choose to be in a good mood or you can choose to be in a bad mood. I choose to be in a good mood. Each time something bad happens, I can choose to be a victim or I can choose to learn from it. I choose to learn from it. Every time someone comes to me complaining, I can choose to accept their complaining or I can point out the positive side of life. I choose the positive side of life.

"Life is all about choices. When you cut away all the junk, every situation is a choice. You choose how you react to situations. You choose how people will affect your mood. You choose to be in a good mood or bad mood. The bottom line: It's your choice how you live life."

THINKING....

At this time, u may not seem cheerful...
and i may not seem in the right mood...
but what shall be done for all of us to be in the right mood..
Without having a good mood,hard to provide positive thoughts..
Never be a listener or either to be the advisors...
Maybe a companion or jus a little helping hand can supports u better...
As time passed and hope everything willl be better...
U may seem crying this moment, but many people may seem laughing....
different people have different feeling...
as the world will keep on turning..
situation will keep on changing...
We may express our feeling...
but finally we will still need to keep on going..

Of all, we shall decide on a happy living instead of the unsolved thinking!!!

ANOTHER TROUBLE!!!

Argh... gosh... all the post time get mixed up by changing the setting of the time to the accurate time...Ooppss.. what really goin on....Hai.... Make me so pening!!! Aiks.. gotta edit each of the post.....OH dear!!!

TIME...

Time

One of the secrets of happiness is to

take time to accomplish what you have to do,

then to make time to achieve what you want to do.

Remember that life is short.

Its golden moments needs hopes and memories and dreams.

When it seems like those things are lost in the shuffle,

you owe it to yourself to find them again.

The days are too precious to let them slip away.

If you're working too hard,

make sure it's because it's a sacrifice for a time

when you're going to pay yourself back

with something more important than money could ever be.

If you're losing the battle,

Do what it takes to win the war

over who is in control of your destiny.

Find time, make time, take time...

to love, to smile, to do something rewarding

and deeply personal and completely worthwhile.

Time is your fortune,

and you can spend it to bring more joy to yourself

and to others your whole life through.

Time is your treasure.

(J. M. Colter)

SINGAPORE

Cousin brother back from Singapore this morning... Holidays always make me think of Singapore... Christmas at Singapore... Crowded and well celebrated place... and of course.. a fren in Singapore... But obviously not people who are the Ks...
wonder how u doing there?? dunno why.. surely think of u when it comes to holidays.. cause looking forward to see when u are back... complaining again of not having any time for you.. aiks.. sometimes not what i wanted.. really have things on..
btw hopefully by this hols.. can spent up time wit you..

WHAT A DAY!!!

A busy day.. A boring day.. A tired day.... not having nice sleep these few days... aiks.. feeling so tiring.. today worst.. got too much things to do.. but not in the mood to do...aiks... die hard... if today dun do.. more die hard tomorrow... how come a day is so short??? Busy day make people feel time is being so short but when it is a boring day.. time seem to be so long...hai.... nothing make perfect day..

~TRUE FRIENDS~

True friends... do i really found my true friends... maybe i did and maybe i didnt.. maybe is you,she,he or them... is this really important... i wonder... A question that came to my mind?? It is really hard to answer or i didnt dare to answer!! It is important to at least to have one but it is really not that easy to find...Maybe i think you are but maybe you dun think the same.. so it is faithed...

Maybe i did past few years... Someone and they who make me realize the importants of frens... but in return it had turn to a gloomy and dark world... i realize from that... i learn from that...

True friends.. make people expect more, understands more,rely more and tolerate more... when it turn out to be a nightmare, it will hurts.....

i rather be a timid on this my true friends, although in my heart some of you are the one... If u and me share the same thought and we will understand by heart... i am sure if u are my true friends.. you shall feel it!

Those person that i was thinking now should be my true friends but i jus wonder will u all think the same!

Friends... hugs and kisses to all of you.....

FRIENDS

~friends~

is it a valuable asset? is it priceless?

"Each friend represents a world in us, a world possibly not born until they arrive, and it is only by this meeting that a new world is born."

"A new friendship is like an unripened fruit - it may become either an orange or a lemon"- Emma Stacey

In our daily life, we might make new friends, getting closer with another friends, keep in touch with a long lost friends, lost contact with some of our friends or losing one or two of our best friends...

We were told to make more friends.. we have friends in our childhood, in our school days, during our teenage age, during our working days, along the way we growing up and in our aging days.. We getting more and more friends in this moment, today, now, later, tomorrow or future... but will today friends are the one who are our future friends, our growing up friends or our aging friends..

In our life, we have many friends but how many from them are really a true friend.. a friend that can be count on, a friend that can stand by your side, someone who can give a hand, share their thoughts, lend their ears and shoulders, someone who will not walk in front nor behind of us but walk together with us....Would all of us found this kind of friends in our life time....."The making of friends, who are real friends, is the best token we have of a man's success in life." - Edward Everett Hale

Friendship forever.. the phrases that we use to hear, the phrases we use to tell our friends.. but how many people in this world really have this kind of friends!! does this phrases apply?? How we shall maintain a friendship... by keeping contact, by understanding, by giving supports, by giving opinions, or giving unbearable thoughts and helps...

Friends can make us learn, make us laugh, give us happiness, give us supports, change our thinking, make us realize a lot of things and the most precious thing and abstract thing is MeMoRiEsSsss...memories may have joyful and merry moments that everyone would like to keep in heart and never forget but there is always the sorrow,painful and awful memories that will remain unconditionally in our hearts and left some foot step or some impact in our life...

"A good friend is hard to find, hard to lose, and impossible to forget..."

"Without friends no one would choose to live, though he had all other goods." (Artistotle)

"A person is only complete when she has a true friend to understand her, to share all her passions and sorrows with, and to stand by her throughout her life."

My Big Family in PT25

Jus came back from UE3.. came across many antique shops, chinese tea shop and many many more chinese style shop.. make me refresh back the time i had together with my'chai chai' and 'lui lui'. Refresh back the time they went there to find for barangan to put in the exhibition and the video recording there. To hold an exhibition which jus held for 2-3 days or even jus few hours but the preparation need to undergo so much circumstances.need the co-operation between all small units - the barangan units, perhiasan, the information units and of course the unit task. Although nowadays seldom get to gather or even meet up wit all of u but the sms and greetings from all of you no matter in wat occasion means so much.. although a simple good nite forward msg but it really show how caring u all are.. thanks to this bunch of children...

TROUBLEs!!!!

Happy of getting successfully creating my first blog... but never thought meets problem in jus few minutes creating this blog... hai.. jus being too careless.. forgotten what is the address for this blog...wahahah... really stupid de! luckily.. after goin up and down searching how to edit the address.. finally settle.. //fu.... finally get back to here...

MY FIRST TIME

Ha ha first time trying on creating a blog.. first time posting something on it.. feeling quite miserable.. dunno how long will this blog remain.. dunno when i will be posting again.. but was great to give it a try.. some place where i can drop what i feel like posting..well.. thanks to u.. the one who introduce this to me..